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Monday, September 25, 2006

About a ciggy


Disclaimer: This entry is NONE about promoting of smoking cigarette. It just an insight of the smokers life...

Ciggy; cigarette; rokok; krontip (rokok siam), refer to the same thing, a stick with a processed tobacco in it with a filter in one of its end.

Operating Method: lights one end without the filter, inhale a bit to make sure the fire caught the tobacco and walla!! you're ready to go. Putt the ciggy off before it caught up the filter.

When i was about to go to work today, i heard the DJ (Khairil and Kiran) were talking about giving up smoking in Ramadhan. As usual, we smokers always have this thought when it come to Ramdhan. It 'seems' that it is the best time to stop, i know a few who prevail and also a lot who fail.

I start smoking right after SPM but i've experimenting it before in form 3,4 and 5. To say that it was peer pressure will overly stated although they do become a factor why i did start. To be frank i cannot stand the smell of the smoke when we used to hand out everyday after SPM. People used to say "If you can't beat em' join em'", that is what i did and now i have to say i regret it.

Another problem with me is that i like to try new things, and when i try 'bad' things i usually hooked up and it damn hard to stop. Thats why don't wanna try drugs, sex and alcohol...... can't imagine if i hooked up on that shite. hmmm... well i did try 'ganja' as far as i remembered, maybe twice.

I started with Dunhill (remember the ads 'Gaya mutu keunggulan'),thanks to the gov for stopping tobacco ads on TV otherwise i don't know how worse the situation would be. Dunhill is consider as one of 'kuat' and 'keras' ciggy. The first time i tried it, cause me to lay down on bed...kinda high. Then when i go to MCC (Mara Community College), things getting worse, i can say that 70% of male population there smoke...!! my roomate Sudin smoke Marlboro so do most of the people there, the reason....maybe because it was an American Degree college, so ppl start to change to american style...yes i know its a lame excuse. Now you can see all the student with pack (soft pack) of Marlboro in their pockets.

Move to UTP i started taking Mild Seven, i think Pok Weil is the one responsible for introducing me to this Japan's brand. So i smoked Mild Seven until today. In between i've tried Lucky Strike, Camel, Gudang Garam Suria, Winston, Peter Stuyvesant, etc.

Ok now back to ciggy, when youre young like that you don't really think how bad something could be. You think you're always in control and you can stop anytime, hahah, well after 10 years i'm still hooked up to the tobacco sensation. I think its more on physhological effect, yes the sensation effect. I mean if you eat durian, you can taste it on your tongue and smell it on your nose....wahhh how best is this durian, but when you smoke the 'taste' it actually not there. You can only feel a smoke entering your throat to your lungs as you inhale and coming out to your mouth or nose (if you prefer). No taste at all!!

So what makes this 24.8% smoker in Malaysia smoke is because of the nicotine + other chemicals sensation. Human activity is all controlled by their brains, it make you feel all sorts of sensation, look at Paracetamol (or we call Panadol), does it really cure your flu, fever etc.... i'm no doctor by i think not. Panadol is just a pain killer, it blocked your pain sensation and let your brain thinks that the pain is gone. Then you go to rest, while youre resting or sleeping the body starts to recuperate and you woke up you feel better (sometimes when you're not and you take another dose of Panadol). The point is those who can control dia mind and will can stop smoking.

Will is a big word. You can say whatever you want to, i want to this, i wan to do that, but can you really make it. As for me that one is still beyond reach. I'm weak i have to admit it.

So for the time being i'll still be one of the person in a statistics who contribute to the big tobacco company RM 3 million revenue per month.

Saturday, September 23, 2006

Ahlan Wa Sahlan Ya Ramadhan

Assalamualaikum,

Selamat datang bulan Ramdhan, begitula bunyi translation utk title topic ini. Bermula Maghrib tadi umat Islam di Malaysia telah mula menyambut kedatangan Ramadhan dgn menjalankan ibadat sunat Tarawih yg menjadi begitu sinonim dgn budaya masyarakat Melayu Islam di Malaysia.

Surau2 dan Masjid2 yang pada bulan lain lengan dan sunyi mula dibanjiri oleh muslimin dan muslimat yg datang utk mendapat keberkatan dan keredhaaan Allah di bulan yg mulia ini. Satu pemandangan yg aku kira menyentuh perasaanku.

Meskipun ibadat sunat Tarawih boleh dilakukan sendirian dirumah, namun di zaman Khalifat Umar Al Khattab ibadat ini telah diadakan secara berjemaah di masjid, bidaah hasanah (baik)hingga ke hari ini. Jadi jika anda terlepas utk berjemaah di masjid janganlah keciwa sehingga meniggalkan terus solat Tarawih pada malam tersebut, anda masih boleh bersolat bersendirian dirumah.

Bulan Ramadhan adalah bulan bonus, jika kakitangan kerajaan menuggu pengumuman bonus di hari belanjawan, maka utk umat Nabi Muhammad dijanjikan bonus di bulan ini. Pertama adalah bonus berpuasa, kedua bonus solat Tarawih dan ketiga bonus malam Lailatul Qadr.


Shalat tarawih atau shalat malam memiliki keutamaan dan keistimewaaan sebagai salah satu ibadah di bulan suci Ramadhan. Apa saja keutamaan shalat tarawih itu?
Dari Ali bin Abi Thalib ra bahwa dia berkata: Nabi SAW ditanya tentang keutamaan-keutamaan tarawih di bulan Ramadhan. Kemudian beliau bersabda:

1. Orang mukmin keluar dari dosanya pada malam pertama, seperti saat dia dilahirkan oleh ibunya.
2. Dan pada malam kedua, ia diampuni, dan juga kedua orang tuanya, jika keduanya mukmin.
3. Dan pada malam ketiga, seorang malaikat berseru dibawah 'Arsy: "Mulailah beramal, semoga Allah mengampuni dosamu yang telah lewat."
4. Pada malam keempat, dia memperoleh pahala seperti pahala membaca Taurat, Injil, Zabur, dan Al-Furqan (Al-Quran).
5. Pada malam kelima, Allah Ta'ala memeberikan pahala seperti pahala orang yang shalat di Masjidil Haram, masjid Madinah dan Masjidil Aqsha.
6. Pada malam keenam, Allah Ta'ala memberikan pahala orang yang berthawaf di Baitul Makmur dan dimohonkan ampun oleh setiap batu dan cadas.
7. Pada malam ketujuh, seolah-olah ia mencapai derajat Nabi Musa a.s. dan kemenangannya atas Fir'aun dan Haman.
8. Pada malam kedelapan, Allah Ta'ala memberinya apa yang pernah Dia berikan kepada Nabi Ibrahin as
9. Pada malam kesembilan, seolah-olah ia beribadat kepada Allah Ta'ala sebagaimana ibadatnya Nabi saw.
10. Pada Malam kesepuluh, Allah Ta'ala mengaruniai dia kebaikan dunia dan akhirat.
11. Pada malam kesebelas, ia keluar dari dunia seperti saat ia dilahirkan dari perut ibunya.
12. Pada malam keduabelas, ia datang pada hari kiamat sedang wajahnya bagaikan bulan di malam purnama.
13. Pada malam ketigabelas, ia datang pada hari kiamat dalam keadaan aman dari segala keburukan.
14. Pada malam keempat belas, para malaikat datang seraya memberi kesaksian untuknya, bahwa ia telah melakukan shalat tarawih, maka Allah tidak menghisabnya pada hari kiamat.
15. Pada malam kelima belas, ia didoakan oleh para malaikat dan para penanggung (pemikul) Arsy dan Kursi.
16. Pada malam keenam belas, Allah menerapkan baginya kebebasan untuk selamat dari neraka dan kebebasan masuk ke dalam surga.
17. Pada malam ketujuh belas, ia diberi pahala seperti pahala para nabi.
18. Pada malam kedelapan belas, seorang malaikat berseru, "Hai hamba Allah, sesungguhnya Allah ridha kepadamu dan kepada ibu bapakmu."
19. Pada malam kesembilan belas, Allah mengangkat derajat-derajatnya dalam surga Firdaus.
20. Pada malam kedua puluh, Allah memberi pahala para Syuhada (orang-orang yang mati syahid) dan shalihin (orang-orang yang saleh).
21. Pada malam kedua puluh satu, Allah membangun untuknya sebuah gedung dari cahaya.
22. Pada malam kedua puluh dua, ia datang pada hari kiamat dalam keadaan aman dari setiap kesedihan dan kesusahan.
23. Pada malam kedua puluh tiga, Allah membangun untuknya sebuah kota di dalam surga.
24. Pada malam kedua puluh empat, ia memperoleh duapuluh empat doa yang dikabulkan.
25. Pada malam kedua puluh lima , Allah Ta'ala menghapuskan darinya azab kubur.
26. Pada malam keduapuluh enam, Allah mengangkat pahalanya selama empat puluh tahun.
27. Pada malam keduapuluh tujuh, ia dapat melewati shirath pada hari kiamat, bagaikan kilat yang menyambar.
28. Pada malam keduapuluh delapan, Allah mengangkat baginya seribu derajat dalam surga.
29. Pada malam kedua puluh sembilan, Allah memberinya pahala seribu haji yang diterima.
30. Dan pada malam ketiga puluh, Allah ber firman : "Hai hamba-Ku, makanlah buah-buahan surga, mandilah dari air Salsabil dan minumlah dari telaga Kautsar. Akulah Tuhanmu, dan engkau hamba-Ku."

Demikianlah, keutamaan shalat tarawih yang disebutkan oleh Rasulullah SAW.


Firman Allah bermaksud: “Sesungguhnya kami telah turunkan al-Quran itu pada malam yang penuh keberkatan dan sesungguhnya Kami-lah yang memberi peringatan.” (Surah al-Dukhan, ayat 2)

Firman Allah bermaksud: “Sesungguhnya kami telah turunkan al-Quran itu pada malam kemuliaan.” (Surah al-Qadr, ayat 1)

Kepada mereka Allah memberikan ganjaran kebaikan yang sama nilainya dengan beramal seribu. Firman Allah bermaksud: "Malam al-Qadar itu itu lebih baik daripada seribu bulan.” (Surah al-Qadr, ayat 3)

Marilah kita bersama2 merebut bonus yang datang setahun sekali ini. Jika 11 bulan telah dikorbankan utk urusan duniawi, apalah sangat sebulan ini kita 'concerntrate' dan fokus utk urusan akhirat kita.

Penjelesan lanjut tentang Ramadhan dan kelebihannya boleh didapati di sini.

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

i'm exhausted

There was an event back in office today, EMIT TEAMBUILDING 2006. I was one of the committee members. Sufficient to say the event went well and all the congratulations pouring into, but other people might not realize what does it cost us/me to make it happen. I must say a lot of energy, time and commitment has been put into. Taki dude youre surely remember when we talk about this early this year, one of the ideas was a Treasure Hunt around KLCC, though it didn't happen like that, but the concept of treasure hunt is till there.

I'm so sad that i miss a 'tahlil' for my anak sepupus last night, this is one of the cost. Kay i received the invitation from my kazen a few days ago, a tahlil is going to be held at their house last nite, somewhere around PJ, section 5.

So yesterday, i have planned it to get there by 8 just in time for Isya'. However there was this committee meeting in the evening to finalize all the stuff, its started at 5 and finish at 7, that after i notified them that i have to leave by that time.

Even so, there are so many others stuff that i still have to do that i only managed to leave office at about 7.45 (that is good enuff, i thought). Travel to PJ i did, and i arrive there at about 8 smthg. I don't really know where the house is, except that the address that i have on hand, i had make 2,3 times u turn around section 5 looking for Lorong 5/15E. Suddently i received a call from Cold Storage, i need to make payment for the hamper as i already promised them to do so.

Initially i planned to pay em' at 6, but since the meeting drag up to 7, i totally forgot and just left off. Now one hand on a steering wheeling another hand on my P910 handset and my mind started to rationalize what to do..... At that time it was already 8.30 and i was already late for the tahlil which i do not know where it is. Finally i made a call to return back to KLCC and 'have' to give up the tahlil. Its not an easy one and along the way, i kept thinking what would i think if it was my tahlil and my relatives and friends simply left me because there are busy........

To arwah Nik Li my anak sepupu, i'm guilty for you. I'm gonna pay back by read yassin for your soul. Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas rohnya dan menempatkannya bersama orang-orang yg beriman. Ameen.

Saturday, September 16, 2006

Capricorn Men Un-covered

CAPRICORN MAN

A man in this Zodiac will has a pair of round big beautiful eyes, a nice structure jaw line. He is a good listener and can understand everything easily and clearly. He can g uess what you will say before you even say it. He often shakes his head or touch his hair. He is a big built, but he will tend to have a small ear. He tends to have a darker shade of hair and eyes’ color. He will likely have a short and strong neck, broad shoulder, muscular, strong hands and grips. He has a shorter fingers compare to the man of the same size and same height in the other zodiac. His hands can work well at the same time can protect and care for his woman.

His height will be proportional to his weight. He will walk firmly and always take a big long step. As he walks he will look around in caution with no disturbance from his problems at present or in the past. He likes to watch things built with fascinate and wonder about how it is done, so you could see him watching a construction site and not get bored.

He is a good dancer. He is a careful person in instinct, so even at dance floor, he will already hav e to know what in front or behind him before he will take any steps.

Green is his favorite color. You will mostly see him wear green, navy, blue, or brown. In all 12 Zodiacs, he is the one who can get the most satisfaction from possession of beautiful thing, and cherish it as if it is very valuable to him even it is just a crystal ball made in France.

It is his luck that he hardly has to chase after woman. They always come themselves without his invitation. He likes to treat his guest in his house than visiting his guest at their house. He does not like to be a center of attention, so if you need his help, you have to look up for him. He lives his life in stability and simplicity. Every decision made are already “Sure” and carefully thought out. He will not do what he has been asked to do if he is not interested in doing it. He acts casually but in reality, he always doing things seriously.

He loves peaceful an d quiet environment so in his free time, he will stay at home instead of going out and look for adventure. He loves nature and dreams of a nice and quiet house with lots of trees, or he may dream of a house in a beautiful countryside.

He will let you have freedoms and watching you in a distance. If you are over doing something, he will let you know by his icy cold look. He is the perfect lover in all the Zodiac for nothing he will not do for his love one. He won’t allow people to laugh at him or think he is a joker, so he will spent for himself luxury for what it is worth.

He likes neat and well dressed woman, so do not be a slop if you are dating this guy. If you do that he will loose his face. He is the romantic type who would dance with you under the moon light.

Love will make him shines and you will see it in his face. He will not say it out loud, you have to know it yourself.

Gemini Ghurl Un-covered




Taki Dude, hope youre reading this. Since you know most of the stories bout me, then this new material that i found in her blog might bring some clues this whole drama. It is a zodiac personality description of her, i pick some of the key point and slot it to the whole stories to unravel why did it happen.

It may not be true at all as some things might be a coincidence but let just explore it for the understanding (read: caution) sake..



First of all, she is a proud geminian, well nothing wrong wittit as everyone proud of what they are, i'm proud to be capricornian.

1. She's a women with many character...hmmm i can see that.
2. she is quite lucky in love.... hmmm i think so.
3. Her conversation will not bored you....yes
4. She can make you feel like you are the luckies man alive....wo wo am i feel lucky right now? perhaps.
5. she needs all your care...no comment.
6. she can stand alone firmly and comfortably. ..."I takde kwn yg free. Takpe i'll b fine alone." ...what else can i say.
7. She can easily make a guy fall in love with her....am i one of those guys? This one i think i quite true...hmmm
8. Her multiple changes and many moods is a 'Charm' for many men.....i can see that :)
9. She can be laughing for 2 minutes than suddently quiet....experienced it :) but its interesting though.
10. Dream guy....are there any university offering Dream Guy 101 courses??
11. She is constantly waiting for her knight in shinning armor even when she is with a steady boy friend....wow this one is very deep..don't you think so Taki dude. See whats happening..If i'm that knight its fine then, but i don't have shinning amor thus i'm not that knight!! omg.
12. She can fall in love or fond of someone else while she is with you....can any 'men' accept this??
13. She will forget you quite fast, because change is in her nature....so breakup can be easy for her...i guess
14. her love live can be complex or a mess....oh my god, how did i end up in this mess? I pray that i can cleaned up this mess.
15. what she belief today can be different tomorrow....how to make you contantly believe in me?
16. Normally she will not lie....fuhhh at least i don't have to use lie detector.
17. She will be supportive person and always be beside you.... :) i can see that with all the 'caring' msg i got, very supportive indeed.
18. She has a beautiful dream and she loves to have someone walk side by side with her, together and equally....someone? whose the one.

allright that all about her. Intresting, valueable, informative, a bit daunting explaination of her.. Stay tune for Capricorn un-covered. I found a website the she refer to, so there i looked up mine. :)

|| Blog At Will ||

I have a lot of thought in my mind. I wish i could share them with as many people as possible as and when i wanted. I wish there is blog at will. Kudos to gmail coz i can post my comment simply by email to my blog like cheponism.xxxxx@blogspot.com.

Yet i still miss a lot of thought because i don't have TIME to do it!!! damn. A lot of this has passed ever since, but i'll try to fast forward and search back my memories to jot it down here.

Stay tune for Gemini Ghurl Un-covered.

Friday, September 08, 2006

....until our path crossed each other again

we say this when we leave our friends. obviously we are at a juction that lead to different direction than our friends, although going to different ways, we hope that we will see each other again.

last weeks i went to KL Sentral and i met my senior in MRSM, both of us recognize each other and both of us doesn't remember each other names. our path crossed again.

while surfing friendster not long ago, i stumbled upon another my MRSM senior, and he was my 'Ketua Bilik'. our path crossed each other again.

i have a bunch of friends in standard 1 (Sekolah Rendah Kebangsaan Sultan Ismail 1, especially those in class '1 Biru'. When i left the school i hope to see them again and yes i did met them in Form 4 at MRSM PC. They were Payeik, Sede and Peja. Our path crossed each other again.

and i am also amused when one of my collegue in office, did end up in my blog here. no one in the office knows about it, but she did cross the path with me here!!