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Monday, July 09, 2007

Nak ditelan mati emak, Nak diluah mati bapak

Have you ever been in a condition where you don't have control over it. A question where all the answers doesn't add up. A junction where each road leads to the same junction. Solutions that always wrong no matter how hard you cracked your head to solve it.

It ain't fun and ultimately not something you enjoy or take pleasure doing it eh? In fact it is something that you always try to avoid.

The effect of this situation among others, uncontrolled anxiety, bad insomnia (for someone who always insomnia like me), higher intakes of caffein and nicotine (thank god i'm not a drug addicts, otherwise i might be OD already), listening to melancholy song like Smashing Pumpkin-Disarm, staring at your phone worrying whats the next killer question gonna be and last but not least more pornography ( ok...this one is overrated).

Thats LIFE. Sooner or later you have to face it, no matter how safe you play. I'm now on this hot boiling bowl....again. Maybe i'm totally 'mangkuk', just what i like to call my friend Nik. :D hahah. or maybe i didn't think hard enough to find amicable solution or a better closure. May Allah help me find answers.

Green Day song Basket Case is currently playing on my iTunes, kinda reflecting this whole things in a musically representation. Funny huh.

Anyway here is part of the lyrics that i think, jive with me.

Do you have the time
To listen to me whine
About nothing and everything
All at once
I am one of those
Melodramatic fools
Neurotic to the bone
No doubt about it

Sometimes I give myself the creeps
Sometimes my mind plays tricks on me
It all keeps adding up
I think I'm cracking up
Am I just paranoid?
Or I'm just stoned

I hope she sleep well tonight despite all this nonsense drama.


iceroll said...

cehh masalah pompuan rupanya....

whoish3 said...

kalau masalah 'laki', lagi la masalah aku... got what i mean?

marshmallow said...

sounds like you're having a drama. you know where to find your remedy.