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Thursday, December 28, 2006

are men cruel?

throughout history men had always been accused as being cruel to their
partners(female not male okay!). Is it true?

I think it does but in most cases women are just dont understand the
sacrifice that men did. When you asked women "what they want?". You could
possibly end up with 2 answers, they either donno or they want everything.

As funny as it may sounds, that is the fact, all because men n women have
different emotional and brains 'wiring'. That is how God created this two
creatures. To complete each other.

Ok now back to my story, referring to entry I HAVE TO MAKE AMEND. I had
come to conscise that everything gonna back to normal. She will go back to
her beloved bf (good for him) and ill go on with my so called DULL life,
full stop. I hope that she would understand or at least try to understand
what i did.

As when things have calm down for the past few months,i think i have pass
over this episode(its kinda challenging episode if i may say). Then
suddently last nite, i received sms frm her. The same thing that happen mid
this year unfold again. Ohh man, not again.

Tomorrow she wants to me. Let see whats gonna happen. Maybe i shld use diff
approach this time.

Women, listen up. Most of time men are being cruel to be kind.

Friday, December 22, 2006

island in the sun

i went to PD for some business works. stayed at Corus Resorts Hotel since Avillion Hotel is fully booked. My colleague said Avillion is much better, and i should think so after my experienced at Corus.

My comments about Corus:

  • They cancelled my bookings without checking with me first. A very very bad first impression.
  • A small elevator for guest. Waiting time is long.
  • At one point there was no waiter to served me at Dickson's Coffee House.
  • Toilet is not very clean.

Anyway, i had a nice view from my room. Look at those gorgeous coconut trees and man made lagoon. *picture taken with P990

Thursday, December 21, 2006

taxi oh taxi

*this post is supposed to be published on Wed, Dec 13. When the incident took place.
I'm in a cab now, heading back to my house. I had to take cab coz Putra LRT
was goddamn jam. Commuter cant even get past the auto gate. They can not
let ppl because there is a lot of ppl already at d track. I thnk smthg
wrong with lrt today.

Well luckily i managed to get a cab after walking frm Avenue K to AmBank to
Angkasaraya. Taxis are scarce at this moment, hi demand lo supply. This is
when i heard from the taxi radio "hartamas ke klcc bayar double"

I bet those in hartamas are even willing to 'bayar triple'.

old man in deep thought

"what if..."

Thursday, December 14, 2006

RIP my luv...

im still in deep sorrow. one of the things that i precious most, have left me. i dont know how will i face my day without her by my side.

when i returned frm worked yesterday, i saw her laying quietly in the room. everything looks as usual. then i gave her a gentle touched her. try to turn her on, but there is no respond.
i started to have strange feeling. again, i try to wake her up. she's not moving. i'm afraid my worse nightmare had come visiting me, and at this moment it is so real.

no, i'm not letting her go just like that! i try to resuscitate her. practising all the skills i had learnt. up to the point i tried the riskiest act, i cut her open.

i tried everything but with no avail. she's gone for good. oh God why did you this to me. after having a good time last night, you took her away. im gonna miss her forever, she has serve me for the best 6 years.

good bye my luv. rest in peace my PC...!

Thursday, December 07, 2006

Bond... James Bond

I went to lunch at Kg Bharu with 4 'hot' moms couple of days ago. The reason being, my usual lunch partner are all busy with their own agenda. So we all went to Kak Som, the stall with all the taste that i need (read kelantan food). You can have all sorts of dishes there PLUS traditional kueh which is very rarity in this cosmopolitan.

During luch, these moms start to talk about latest James Bond movie, Casino Royale. I haven't watch it, but i have heard couple of my friends commenting about it. But what i heard from these moms (read female) is kind of weird and show how different men and women see things.

They claimed that this new movie is NO GOOD...Well they first point they mentioned is that Daniel Craig is not good looking and hunky as the previous one (Pierce Brosnan). uhukk!!! i choked inside. and then they continue bla bla bla... but the main point is that.

This is very contrast to the comment i received from my male's friends. The first thing they said is, this movie is different from previous Bond's movie. Hmmm that statement enough to excite me to ask "Why?". They said the action are more realistic, he use less gadget to fight that evil nemesis, more rage and more logical!! well that statement is enough to convince me to watch it (though i haven't got a time to watch it). I really love everything about Bond when i was small but as i grew older and start to use my mind, i really don't like Bond's character. He is so cool, even when with facing WEAPON OF MASS DESTRUCTIONS, he depends a lot on his gadget, his action looks stupid, he always screwed Bond's girl (damm!!) and all the nonsense associate with his character.

Women and Men perspective are totally different. How the weighted things that they see is different. No wonder we complement each others. To those 'mom' who don't like this movie, i suggest you go back and rewatch Lord of The Ring, Orlando Bloom is there!!! hahaha

Wednesday, November 29, 2006

a sad wednesday morning

i wake up just now to a shocking news, delivered by my sister. My aunt passed away in Kota Bharu. Before that i hear the phone ringing i think at 3am or something and then again at 4 something, i looked at the screen and the caller ID show K Ann name.The first thought in my mind was she accidentally push the call button and so did the phone rings. I didn't pick up. Never ever in my conscious state of my mind,would i think about this sudden demise.

My aunt, Che Yah looks fine during our last Hari Raya gathering. She even cooked my fav dished, kuzi ayam. She was really a good cook. I'm still suprised and tried to accept this bitter truth, i couldn't imagine how was the feelings of her 4 children; Kak Azi, Kak Ann, Jaja and Yayang.

My sympathy is with them.

I'm taking a flight back home this morning. Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas rohnya dan ditempatkan bersama orang2 yg beriman dan beramal soleh.

p/s: kepada pembaca tolong sedekahkan Al-Fatihah utk roh si arwah.

Monday, November 27, 2006

Remember the good ol' days - Part 2

Yes, yesterday i went to butterfingers gigs at KL Jam Asia, Sri Hartamas. The gigs was entitled celebrating 1.2 milligrams 10th anniversary. was there with 3 of my frens, ah send, pok nik and jeli. there i met with hussein, tungkai and, taki and fiance.

KL Jam Asia is located at 2nd row of shop lots besides Sri Hartamas Fire Dpt HQ. It was kind
a of small cafe at 2nd floor, not quite a 'comfortable' place to held such a 'big' reunion.

when i arrived i see a number of crowd outside there. most of the faces looks like there are in mid 20' and above. although to my suprised i can see a fairly young 'kids' with their My Chemical Romance-emo/gothic hairstyle among the crowd. the first thing coming out of my mind was "hey kids you don't belongs here, this is grunge thing, you were sitting for your UPSR when we were rocking". hahhaha... there were some familiar faces that i've seen in the early days of gigs. You guys still rawking kewll.

so what is all the fuss about this event. i don't know about others,but for me its because of 1.2 milligrams album itself. let say if they held gigs for 'Selamat Tinggal Dunia' album or 'Malayneum', i might not be as excited as i was. 1.2 was the single most successful, repectful, major label released malaysian grunge album. The year was 1996 the same year i took my SPM. I still remember how did i knew butterfingers, it was my juniors in MRSM (can't remember his name). He gave me his butter cassette and told me "Nirvana Malaysia". i put the casette in my Walkman and yes they sounds like Nirvana, but hey all the bands in late 90's play this seattle sounds (grunge). all the kids (yes i was kid back then) are into this grunge thiggy. Those who were born between mid 70's to mid 80's would certainly love this music. They were teenager in 1996, full with teenage angst, rebellious and one of the music dose suitable for them is buttermusic. OAG was in the scene prior to butter, but they suddenly lost their fan base because they 'sold out' in other word they no longer 'underground'. well butter also did they same, they sign with major label (EMI) but i guess their commitment to the fans and underground scene, makes them more appealing than OAG.

ok back to the gigs. once in the cafe, we settle down besides the sound mixer machine. there was this guy with his dreadlock hair manning that machine,which later i found out he was Batak from 18SGG, another big name in underground music. and then there is another guy who looks like he just wake up from bed coming in with his mixer and ibook. plugin those two hardware on the sound machine. later kadak and the drummer (i'm not sure who he was, i don't think he's kalai) arrived. the crowd begins to give huge hurrah to em'. energy begins to built up. later arrived emmett, with another huge cheer.

emmett start rawking with 10db, a high pace songs which the crowd begins to mosh hysterically like they've been holding up this energy for the past 10 years; a guy even start to stage dive. next here comes naive sick chasm, by now the crowd begin to sing a long. emmett voices was submerged and replaced by this loyal crowd who really missed the good ol' days. i'm not sure whether butter played all their 1.2 milli songs, but those that i recalled was nicc o tyne, wet blanket, ugly, me, sober (my all time fav) and chrome (another all time fav). the end their show with, as usual, vio-pipe.

later butter had a photo session cum fan's conferences. one person asked emmett, whether their new album will feature the grunge/seattle sounds, like 1.2 milligrams and emmett's answer struck me deep inside. he said something like this, grunge is like one excite part of your life. it was fun. now they have move on to their new sounds. I concur with him, it was an excite part of my life, thats why i was there, to revive that excitement, and i did. life goes on, there much more things in life than grunge, but alas i'm happy to be part of it.

kudos to this die-hard event organizer

butterfingers.... keep on rawking!!

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

Remember the good ol' days

This coming Saturday, Butterfingers (or for this showcase Butterfinger) will perfom their songs for the acclaimed 1.2 miligrams album. The first album that sky rocket em' to the post grunge scene in Malaysia.

For me it is like going back to the good sweet days of MRSM, MCC and UTP....

For further details, check this website
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Monday, November 20, 2006

Let Adobe read PDF to you!!

i found something kewll tonite (yup been browsing the net for the past 48 hrs, since i got my broadband) on the net.

You can let Adobe read the PDF files to you. Seriously, try it out. You got to have Adobe v6 and above. Then Pres Ctrl + Shift + B. Walla!!

To stop go to View > Read Out Loud > Stop

Kewll huh!!

Sunday, November 19, 2006

my new toy.... p990-The Ultimate Phone

I got my P990 3 days ago, after Nik return from Singapore. According to Nik its gonna burn a hole in my pocket in the sum of RM2400...ouchhh!

I bought this phone because i'm considering to jump into 3G bandwagon for my broadband access, at the point when i decided, TMNET streamyx access is still not available at my house. I only been told by my sis that there was streamyx bills on Wed, when Nik already bought the phone. Else i might not have bought this beauty with brains.

Its funny thinking about it, suddenly both of your wish come true, is it blessing in disguise or curse in disguise. Anyway, i'm happy toying with this phone, although it is still bugs prone, but hey i'm used to Windows...hahhaha.

I've update the firmware and now its running on
-Phone: R7A001
-Bluetooth: R4F01
-Organizer: R3B01
-CDA: R3B01

so far its running 'ok', with some minor crashed. It is recommended you install app Swiss Manager to better managed its memory.

I've also Master Reset it (with hoping to kill one of the bugs) but it end, up i lost the best preinstall game, Vijay Singh Golf Pro 2005. Please note i did Backup the phone (i'm not that clumsy), but when i've restore it, its not there anymore....... :(.

Wrote complaint note to Sonyericsson, after searching software on the net with no avail. I hope they can do something about it.

I'll write more about this hunny, next time!!

Saturday, November 18, 2006

I'm now broadband user...yippie

I'm happy chap today, today i'm blogging in style-with-broadband. Yup i just got my streamyx access after 2 years of bitter fight with the ISP. It was a sweet victory indeed, an anti climax as well.

In my story I'm not OK , i've pour
ed my dissatisfaction with what i consider a huge shame to TMNet. My housing areas which is within city center, a few km radius from Celcom HQ, UTM KL and Mindef; was a black spot, no broadband connection. So unacceptable. The crusade start after i submit my second applications.

I've contacted , the complaint dpt under MCMC (Malaysia Communication and Multimedia Commission) to voice grievances. I'm sceptical that something gonna happen, but as you witness today after 1 years it did happen. Its not a smooth sailing though. I have to credit success to one of TM Manager Pn Hasnah, who handle my case personally. She even goes extra miles by giving her mobile phone no and email to contact her. For the past 6 months we are constantly communicate with each other. Hasnah thanks...!! I'll send you a complimentary email.

Yehaa.... gonna 'qadha' what i've missed from the net..

Let see the facts n figures of this new connection:
From Jaring bandwith meter

Monday, November 13, 2006

Time is running out

i heard about this band like two years ago from Jen, but didn't pay much attention and/or initiative to dig into their musics. Been busy (lame excuse that i always give), but today when i found Muse cd on my cousin's car, i didn't have any excuse NOT to listen to it. So i borrowed it and now i'm playing it on my Winamp.

their strong and emotional vocal, heavy guitar, rhythmatic drums and percussion (piano i believed) make their sounds good to my ear. their brit-pop influenced can be traced clearly in their sounds, though they still retain much of their own personality. the lyrics which is very deep and meaningful is a soup-of-the day for me. its been a long time since the heyday of grunge i would sit down, smoked, listen to the music while reading the lyrics, the exception would be on My Chemical Romances; which i would say a bloody good band also.

ok, the cd (that i loaned from my cousin) got some scratches on it, now, when it play track 5 onwards the sounds start to distort. I have removed the CD from the PC but guess what, the sounds still coming out from the speakers... and it has been more than 5 mins. Holy shit, this CD is spooky.....hahahhaha. The only logical reasons, speaking from IT Expert perspectives is the data (read Muse songs) is stored on RAM, so when i removed the cd the data is still in my pc and so it still would be able to feed it to the application then to the speaker.

Now the tricky part, i also have quit Winamped and killed their process, and still the sounds is coming out!!!

Below is the lyric from one of their fav singles Time is Running Out. I really love this songs, reading their lyrics make it even better. It is like a blueprint of the dilemma that i'm having now. So folks, enjoy the lyric below (If you have the mp3, play it out loud!!)

Muse-Time is Running Out
I think I'm drowning
I wanna break this spell
that you've created

you're something beautiful
a contradiction
I wanna play the game
I want the friction

you will be the death of me
you will be the death of me

bury it

I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it

our time is running out
our time is running out

you can't push it underground
you can't stop it screaming out

I wanted freedom
bound and restricted
I tried to give you up
but I'm addicted

now that you know
I'm trapped sense of elation

you'd never dream of
breaking this fixation

you will squeeze the life out of me

bury it

I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it

our time is running out
our time is running out

you can't push it underground
you can't stop it screaming out

how did it come to this?

ooooohh yeah yeah yeah
ooooohh yeah yeah yeah
ooooohh yeah yeah yeahhhh

you will suck the life out of me

bury it

I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it

our time is running out
our time is running out

you can't push it underground
you can't stop it screaming out

How did it come to this?

ooooohh yeah yeah yeah
ooooohh yeah yeah yeah
ooooohh yeah yeah yeahhhh

Friday, November 10, 2006


i got a new word tonight...thanks to the online dictionary.

Fickle: Characterized by erratic changeableness or instability, especially with regard to affections or attachments; capricious.

well this word come from one of forum where the users are responding to the questions; What do women want?

some of the comments (some are funny...hahha):
  1. Women don't even know what they want....why bother even asking?
  2. I always thought that all the little lady wanted was to see her reflection in the bottom of a well cleaned and polished pan. Must've been wrong for years.
  3. What do women want? Shoes and handbags simple!
  4. If I ask my girlfriend what she wants I get shouted at for not knowing.<---kakkaka
  5. It is not that woomen don't know what they want. It's that they lie about what they want. They always leave off important information they assume "everyone" knows.
  6. Actually, women do know what they want and they can always tell you (though they may refuse to tell you). Unfortunately, what they want right now is not what they wanted yesterday and won't be what they want this afternoon.
  7. Amen brother... I believe the word is FICKLE.
  8. "You should already know"
    asking is a trap <------ :)
  9. My girlfriend told me she liked shiny things. I bought her a mop and said "Here you go baby, spoil yourself."<---------huhuhu
  10. There's only one thing women want:
This bring me to a quote from her blog " i expect a lot and nearly tooo much "

Now, think about it, what a slacker, kampung boy, laid back, un-metrosexual, Paralipophobia , geek, and kelantanese have to offer to her.

p.s: dah ngantuk, time for bed....damn TGIF tomorrow.

I have to make Amend

1. To change for the better; improve:
2. To remove the faults or errors in; correct

I have to make Amend...I must!!!

I've done something wrong according to Honor Among Men code sometimes this year. Its a long story and kind of complex, but somehow things that happening tonight open up an opportunity to me to correct things, or simply to make Amend.

p/s: I shall planned better this time. Not to screwed up again........but wait wait wait..... the decision is not finalize yet, had to think thoroughly (because my habit of like to 'think', she labelled me as 'complicated'??) first.

why the fuck i'm blogging at this time

Time: 2:30AM
Winamp: Moloko - A drop in ocean (now i'm gonna changed to Placebo - Days before you came)
Smoke: Mild7

I always had sleeping problem. What happened was, i will be Xtremely tired and sleepy around 6-8pm and if i fall, i'll awake at 12 and can't sleep till around 3am. Demmitt!!!

Today, i've fall asleep at 8 and now is the i'm gonna blog till i fall...again :D

*talk about Placebo always remind me of Taqi. Yeahh... that CD.

Blue Screen Of Death (BSOD)

I had a BSOD just now, about 2:05AM. I never had this 'cursed' for quite a long time. It come at most ironic moment of my life.

Well i was browsing this friendsta's frienster page, when Zone Alarm msg pop up and i click one of the button, then "Walla..." the cursed of Bill Gates come out.

That frienster page is something...gonna tell you bout it next time.

post Raya

Raya this year is a history of itself, at least for me. On the 2nd day of it i was already in KL!!

First time ever in mylife i did that; and its not gonna be the last (let say if i'm married with KL gals). The reason i'm back to KL so soon got to do with something happening with my family in KB.

There is not many ppl at my home (btw, its only 4 of us 'adik beradik')this year; my bro didn't come back, his wife is heavily pregnant; my younger sis is in Yogjakarta pursuing Medicine, my parent is flying over to Yogja to visit her on first day of Raya and my sis simply don't want to go back because ....(i don't know her real reason but i think simply 'malas').

So it was like, i'm the only one with the high spirit to return to my beloved home (read Kelantan). First of all i did miss my mum and dad; and this like the 'official' ocassion where you seek their forgiveness. No, i'm not saying you cannot seek forvigeness on other day, but Raya is the special day.

Then, i don't only miss my family, i have all this bunch of friends that i miss a lot. They are from my alma matter; SRK Padang Garong II, SMIP, SIC, MRSM PC, MCC and UTP. We only get touch with each other at this day. Though many of us stay in KL, but again we are so distant.

I also miss all the kelantan food, various 'excotic' kueh are ready-made for breakfast and during raya. Where in Malaysia can you eat 'Taik Itik'?? I managed to get hold on 2 packet of 'Air Tuak' on the last few days of fasting. It seems that i't getting harder to get this special drink. I guess many of the ol Tuak collector have retired and their next of kin is not interested to resume this work. It was like a rare items now days and with all KL folks rushing back to kelantan the demand reach its highest point.

I can stay back at KB alone, but feasibility wise its not a good idea. Can't imagine if all relatives and friends come 'attacking' my house, 'nak angkat apa?'. So there i was on 2 day of raya, travelling from KB-KL in a Satria Neo.

Thursday, October 19, 2006



UTK SEMUA..........

Note: yeaaa...aku akan blk ke kg malam ni (InsyaAllah lepas sahur). Kota Bharu....that is where i belongs..

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

HowTo Bullshit

1. Think quickly. If you take too long, people are not going to believe you. The first thing that comes into your head is probably not the best choice unless you are used to bullshitting... but after a half second, you should have about three or so thoughts, one of which will work.

2. Make sure it's believable. Use information that you already know, and extend it just beyond the realm of what you know.

3. Any version of the popular 'Trivial Pursuit' games can provide one with a great source of bullshitable material. Simply read the questions and their associated answers. This store of useless, but true, knowledge can provide the perfect platform on which to build a great bullshit tale. There's nothing like having just enough knowledge to be dangerous!

4. Say what you say with confidence. If you say "um" and "stuff" nobody will believe you. If you say something like "In reality the sky is actually green", you can convince someone if you only say it in a tone that makes it seem true. It is only afterwards, when they think about the logistics, when they realize it's false.

5. Don´t forget to use the phrase,´at the end of the day´, to highlight your conclusions .

For other HowTos, go to ------> Here

Sunday, October 08, 2006

kisah butang baju melayu

I just returned from Tarawih prayer at Surau Ansar in my apartment. Something weird happen there.

Before Imam start the Tarawih a middle-age person approach me and handover a brand new 'butang baju melayu'. Yes this night i wear my cream colored baju melayu, the first time in this fasting month and yes i didn't put the butang on, on purpose. I was lazy to put on the butang as i was rushing to get to the 'surau'.

I was speechless, don't you if the same thing happen to you. So i took it and put in my pocket as Imam was already start the takbir. Then this guys gentle said "Pakailah..". I gave a gentle smile in reply.

Then i have to move away from him, to fill the 'saf' infront. In between the Tarawih i took out one butang and put on.

Before i left the surau i met think guy and shake hand with him as a sign of thank you.

The weird of this story is, how many people went to pray with additional 'butang baju melayu' in their pocket, and then give it away to people who are lazy enough to put one on?

I'm still in shock.

Saturday, October 07, 2006

why professional use white lens - Canon propaganda

Taki dude. Now i know why professional use white lens (read Canon). Back in 90s when professional photographer began to use AF zoom cameras, both Nikon and Canon introduce this type of cameras to the market. However Nikon AF couln't focus FAST enough to satisty the demand of quick action in sports. They lost to Canon ever since and haven't recovered yet!!

But overall Canon and Nikon are likes Merc and Beemers, both are good and quality products. Read here for more info.

Monday, September 25, 2006

About a ciggy

Disclaimer: This entry is NONE about promoting of smoking cigarette. It just an insight of the smokers life...

Ciggy; cigarette; rokok; krontip (rokok siam), refer to the same thing, a stick with a processed tobacco in it with a filter in one of its end.

Operating Method: lights one end without the filter, inhale a bit to make sure the fire caught the tobacco and walla!! you're ready to go. Putt the ciggy off before it caught up the filter.

When i was about to go to work today, i heard the DJ (Khairil and Kiran) were talking about giving up smoking in Ramadhan. As usual, we smokers always have this thought when it come to Ramdhan. It 'seems' that it is the best time to stop, i know a few who prevail and also a lot who fail.

I start smoking right after SPM but i've experimenting it before in form 3,4 and 5. To say that it was peer pressure will overly stated although they do become a factor why i did start. To be frank i cannot stand the smell of the smoke when we used to hand out everyday after SPM. People used to say "If you can't beat em' join em'", that is what i did and now i have to say i regret it.

Another problem with me is that i like to try new things, and when i try 'bad' things i usually hooked up and it damn hard to stop. Thats why don't wanna try drugs, sex and alcohol...... can't imagine if i hooked up on that shite. hmmm... well i did try 'ganja' as far as i remembered, maybe twice.

I started with Dunhill (remember the ads 'Gaya mutu keunggulan'),thanks to the gov for stopping tobacco ads on TV otherwise i don't know how worse the situation would be. Dunhill is consider as one of 'kuat' and 'keras' ciggy. The first time i tried it, cause me to lay down on bed...kinda high. Then when i go to MCC (Mara Community College), things getting worse, i can say that 70% of male population there smoke...!! my roomate Sudin smoke Marlboro so do most of the people there, the reason....maybe because it was an American Degree college, so ppl start to change to american style...yes i know its a lame excuse. Now you can see all the student with pack (soft pack) of Marlboro in their pockets.

Move to UTP i started taking Mild Seven, i think Pok Weil is the one responsible for introducing me to this Japan's brand. So i smoked Mild Seven until today. In between i've tried Lucky Strike, Camel, Gudang Garam Suria, Winston, Peter Stuyvesant, etc.

Ok now back to ciggy, when youre young like that you don't really think how bad something could be. You think you're always in control and you can stop anytime, hahah, well after 10 years i'm still hooked up to the tobacco sensation. I think its more on physhological effect, yes the sensation effect. I mean if you eat durian, you can taste it on your tongue and smell it on your nose....wahhh how best is this durian, but when you smoke the 'taste' it actually not there. You can only feel a smoke entering your throat to your lungs as you inhale and coming out to your mouth or nose (if you prefer). No taste at all!!

So what makes this 24.8% smoker in Malaysia smoke is because of the nicotine + other chemicals sensation. Human activity is all controlled by their brains, it make you feel all sorts of sensation, look at Paracetamol (or we call Panadol), does it really cure your flu, fever etc.... i'm no doctor by i think not. Panadol is just a pain killer, it blocked your pain sensation and let your brain thinks that the pain is gone. Then you go to rest, while youre resting or sleeping the body starts to recuperate and you woke up you feel better (sometimes when you're not and you take another dose of Panadol). The point is those who can control dia mind and will can stop smoking.

Will is a big word. You can say whatever you want to, i want to this, i wan to do that, but can you really make it. As for me that one is still beyond reach. I'm weak i have to admit it.

So for the time being i'll still be one of the person in a statistics who contribute to the big tobacco company RM 3 million revenue per month.

Saturday, September 23, 2006

Ahlan Wa Sahlan Ya Ramadhan


Selamat datang bulan Ramdhan, begitula bunyi translation utk title topic ini. Bermula Maghrib tadi umat Islam di Malaysia telah mula menyambut kedatangan Ramadhan dgn menjalankan ibadat sunat Tarawih yg menjadi begitu sinonim dgn budaya masyarakat Melayu Islam di Malaysia.

Surau2 dan Masjid2 yang pada bulan lain lengan dan sunyi mula dibanjiri oleh muslimin dan muslimat yg datang utk mendapat keberkatan dan keredhaaan Allah di bulan yg mulia ini. Satu pemandangan yg aku kira menyentuh perasaanku.

Meskipun ibadat sunat Tarawih boleh dilakukan sendirian dirumah, namun di zaman Khalifat Umar Al Khattab ibadat ini telah diadakan secara berjemaah di masjid, bidaah hasanah (baik)hingga ke hari ini. Jadi jika anda terlepas utk berjemaah di masjid janganlah keciwa sehingga meniggalkan terus solat Tarawih pada malam tersebut, anda masih boleh bersolat bersendirian dirumah.

Bulan Ramadhan adalah bulan bonus, jika kakitangan kerajaan menuggu pengumuman bonus di hari belanjawan, maka utk umat Nabi Muhammad dijanjikan bonus di bulan ini. Pertama adalah bonus berpuasa, kedua bonus solat Tarawih dan ketiga bonus malam Lailatul Qadr.

Shalat tarawih atau shalat malam memiliki keutamaan dan keistimewaaan sebagai salah satu ibadah di bulan suci Ramadhan. Apa saja keutamaan shalat tarawih itu?
Dari Ali bin Abi Thalib ra bahwa dia berkata: Nabi SAW ditanya tentang keutamaan-keutamaan tarawih di bulan Ramadhan. Kemudian beliau bersabda:

1. Orang mukmin keluar dari dosanya pada malam pertama, seperti saat dia dilahirkan oleh ibunya.
2. Dan pada malam kedua, ia diampuni, dan juga kedua orang tuanya, jika keduanya mukmin.
3. Dan pada malam ketiga, seorang malaikat berseru dibawah 'Arsy: "Mulailah beramal, semoga Allah mengampuni dosamu yang telah lewat."
4. Pada malam keempat, dia memperoleh pahala seperti pahala membaca Taurat, Injil, Zabur, dan Al-Furqan (Al-Quran).
5. Pada malam kelima, Allah Ta'ala memeberikan pahala seperti pahala orang yang shalat di Masjidil Haram, masjid Madinah dan Masjidil Aqsha.
6. Pada malam keenam, Allah Ta'ala memberikan pahala orang yang berthawaf di Baitul Makmur dan dimohonkan ampun oleh setiap batu dan cadas.
7. Pada malam ketujuh, seolah-olah ia mencapai derajat Nabi Musa a.s. dan kemenangannya atas Fir'aun dan Haman.
8. Pada malam kedelapan, Allah Ta'ala memberinya apa yang pernah Dia berikan kepada Nabi Ibrahin as
9. Pada malam kesembilan, seolah-olah ia beribadat kepada Allah Ta'ala sebagaimana ibadatnya Nabi saw.
10. Pada Malam kesepuluh, Allah Ta'ala mengaruniai dia kebaikan dunia dan akhirat.
11. Pada malam kesebelas, ia keluar dari dunia seperti saat ia dilahirkan dari perut ibunya.
12. Pada malam keduabelas, ia datang pada hari kiamat sedang wajahnya bagaikan bulan di malam purnama.
13. Pada malam ketigabelas, ia datang pada hari kiamat dalam keadaan aman dari segala keburukan.
14. Pada malam keempat belas, para malaikat datang seraya memberi kesaksian untuknya, bahwa ia telah melakukan shalat tarawih, maka Allah tidak menghisabnya pada hari kiamat.
15. Pada malam kelima belas, ia didoakan oleh para malaikat dan para penanggung (pemikul) Arsy dan Kursi.
16. Pada malam keenam belas, Allah menerapkan baginya kebebasan untuk selamat dari neraka dan kebebasan masuk ke dalam surga.
17. Pada malam ketujuh belas, ia diberi pahala seperti pahala para nabi.
18. Pada malam kedelapan belas, seorang malaikat berseru, "Hai hamba Allah, sesungguhnya Allah ridha kepadamu dan kepada ibu bapakmu."
19. Pada malam kesembilan belas, Allah mengangkat derajat-derajatnya dalam surga Firdaus.
20. Pada malam kedua puluh, Allah memberi pahala para Syuhada (orang-orang yang mati syahid) dan shalihin (orang-orang yang saleh).
21. Pada malam kedua puluh satu, Allah membangun untuknya sebuah gedung dari cahaya.
22. Pada malam kedua puluh dua, ia datang pada hari kiamat dalam keadaan aman dari setiap kesedihan dan kesusahan.
23. Pada malam kedua puluh tiga, Allah membangun untuknya sebuah kota di dalam surga.
24. Pada malam kedua puluh empat, ia memperoleh duapuluh empat doa yang dikabulkan.
25. Pada malam kedua puluh lima , Allah Ta'ala menghapuskan darinya azab kubur.
26. Pada malam keduapuluh enam, Allah mengangkat pahalanya selama empat puluh tahun.
27. Pada malam keduapuluh tujuh, ia dapat melewati shirath pada hari kiamat, bagaikan kilat yang menyambar.
28. Pada malam keduapuluh delapan, Allah mengangkat baginya seribu derajat dalam surga.
29. Pada malam kedua puluh sembilan, Allah memberinya pahala seribu haji yang diterima.
30. Dan pada malam ketiga puluh, Allah ber firman : "Hai hamba-Ku, makanlah buah-buahan surga, mandilah dari air Salsabil dan minumlah dari telaga Kautsar. Akulah Tuhanmu, dan engkau hamba-Ku."

Demikianlah, keutamaan shalat tarawih yang disebutkan oleh Rasulullah SAW.

Firman Allah bermaksud: “Sesungguhnya kami telah turunkan al-Quran itu pada malam yang penuh keberkatan dan sesungguhnya Kami-lah yang memberi peringatan.” (Surah al-Dukhan, ayat 2)

Firman Allah bermaksud: “Sesungguhnya kami telah turunkan al-Quran itu pada malam kemuliaan.” (Surah al-Qadr, ayat 1)

Kepada mereka Allah memberikan ganjaran kebaikan yang sama nilainya dengan beramal seribu. Firman Allah bermaksud: "Malam al-Qadar itu itu lebih baik daripada seribu bulan.” (Surah al-Qadr, ayat 3)

Marilah kita bersama2 merebut bonus yang datang setahun sekali ini. Jika 11 bulan telah dikorbankan utk urusan duniawi, apalah sangat sebulan ini kita 'concerntrate' dan fokus utk urusan akhirat kita.

Penjelesan lanjut tentang Ramadhan dan kelebihannya boleh didapati di sini.

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

i'm exhausted

There was an event back in office today, EMIT TEAMBUILDING 2006. I was one of the committee members. Sufficient to say the event went well and all the congratulations pouring into, but other people might not realize what does it cost us/me to make it happen. I must say a lot of energy, time and commitment has been put into. Taki dude youre surely remember when we talk about this early this year, one of the ideas was a Treasure Hunt around KLCC, though it didn't happen like that, but the concept of treasure hunt is till there.

I'm so sad that i miss a 'tahlil' for my anak sepupus last night, this is one of the cost. Kay i received the invitation from my kazen a few days ago, a tahlil is going to be held at their house last nite, somewhere around PJ, section 5.

So yesterday, i have planned it to get there by 8 just in time for Isya'. However there was this committee meeting in the evening to finalize all the stuff, its started at 5 and finish at 7, that after i notified them that i have to leave by that time.

Even so, there are so many others stuff that i still have to do that i only managed to leave office at about 7.45 (that is good enuff, i thought). Travel to PJ i did, and i arrive there at about 8 smthg. I don't really know where the house is, except that the address that i have on hand, i had make 2,3 times u turn around section 5 looking for Lorong 5/15E. Suddently i received a call from Cold Storage, i need to make payment for the hamper as i already promised them to do so.

Initially i planned to pay em' at 6, but since the meeting drag up to 7, i totally forgot and just left off. Now one hand on a steering wheeling another hand on my P910 handset and my mind started to rationalize what to do..... At that time it was already 8.30 and i was already late for the tahlil which i do not know where it is. Finally i made a call to return back to KLCC and 'have' to give up the tahlil. Its not an easy one and along the way, i kept thinking what would i think if it was my tahlil and my relatives and friends simply left me because there are busy........

To arwah Nik Li my anak sepupu, i'm guilty for you. I'm gonna pay back by read yassin for your soul. Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas rohnya dan menempatkannya bersama orang-orang yg beriman. Ameen.

Saturday, September 16, 2006

Capricorn Men Un-covered


A man in this Zodiac will has a pair of round big beautiful eyes, a nice structure jaw line. He is a good listener and can understand everything easily and clearly. He can g uess what you will say before you even say it. He often shakes his head or touch his hair. He is a big built, but he will tend to have a small ear. He tends to have a darker shade of hair and eyes’ color. He will likely have a short and strong neck, broad shoulder, muscular, strong hands and grips. He has a shorter fingers compare to the man of the same size and same height in the other zodiac. His hands can work well at the same time can protect and care for his woman.

His height will be proportional to his weight. He will walk firmly and always take a big long step. As he walks he will look around in caution with no disturbance from his problems at present or in the past. He likes to watch things built with fascinate and wonder about how it is done, so you could see him watching a construction site and not get bored.

He is a good dancer. He is a careful person in instinct, so even at dance floor, he will already hav e to know what in front or behind him before he will take any steps.

Green is his favorite color. You will mostly see him wear green, navy, blue, or brown. In all 12 Zodiacs, he is the one who can get the most satisfaction from possession of beautiful thing, and cherish it as if it is very valuable to him even it is just a crystal ball made in France.

It is his luck that he hardly has to chase after woman. They always come themselves without his invitation. He likes to treat his guest in his house than visiting his guest at their house. He does not like to be a center of attention, so if you need his help, you have to look up for him. He lives his life in stability and simplicity. Every decision made are already “Sure” and carefully thought out. He will not do what he has been asked to do if he is not interested in doing it. He acts casually but in reality, he always doing things seriously.

He loves peaceful an d quiet environment so in his free time, he will stay at home instead of going out and look for adventure. He loves nature and dreams of a nice and quiet house with lots of trees, or he may dream of a house in a beautiful countryside.

He will let you have freedoms and watching you in a distance. If you are over doing something, he will let you know by his icy cold look. He is the perfect lover in all the Zodiac for nothing he will not do for his love one. He won’t allow people to laugh at him or think he is a joker, so he will spent for himself luxury for what it is worth.

He likes neat and well dressed woman, so do not be a slop if you are dating this guy. If you do that he will loose his face. He is the romantic type who would dance with you under the moon light.

Love will make him shines and you will see it in his face. He will not say it out loud, you have to know it yourself.

Gemini Ghurl Un-covered

Taki Dude, hope youre reading this. Since you know most of the stories bout me, then this new material that i found in her blog might bring some clues this whole drama. It is a zodiac personality description of her, i pick some of the key point and slot it to the whole stories to unravel why did it happen.

It may not be true at all as some things might be a coincidence but let just explore it for the understanding (read: caution) sake..

First of all, she is a proud geminian, well nothing wrong wittit as everyone proud of what they are, i'm proud to be capricornian.

1. She's a women with many character...hmmm i can see that.
2. she is quite lucky in love.... hmmm i think so.
3. Her conversation will not bored you....yes
4. She can make you feel like you are the luckies man alive....wo wo am i feel lucky right now? perhaps.
5. she needs all your comment.
6. she can stand alone firmly and comfortably. ..."I takde kwn yg free. Takpe i'll b fine alone." ...what else can i say.
7. She can easily make a guy fall in love with i one of those guys? This one i think i quite true...hmmm
8. Her multiple changes and many moods is a 'Charm' for many men.....i can see that :)
9. She can be laughing for 2 minutes than suddently quiet....experienced it :) but its interesting though.
10. Dream guy....are there any university offering Dream Guy 101 courses??
11. She is constantly waiting for her knight in shinning armor even when she is with a steady boy this one is very deep..don't you think so Taki dude. See whats happening..If i'm that knight its fine then, but i don't have shinning amor thus i'm not that knight!! omg.
12. She can fall in love or fond of someone else while she is with you....can any 'men' accept this??
13. She will forget you quite fast, because change is in her breakup can be easy for her...i guess
14. her love live can be complex or a mess....oh my god, how did i end up in this mess? I pray that i can cleaned up this mess.
15. what she belief today can be different to make you contantly believe in me?
16. Normally she will not lie....fuhhh at least i don't have to use lie detector.
17. She will be supportive person and always be beside you.... :) i can see that with all the 'caring' msg i got, very supportive indeed.
18. She has a beautiful dream and she loves to have someone walk side by side with her, together and equally....someone? whose the one.

allright that all about her. Intresting, valueable, informative, a bit daunting explaination of her.. Stay tune for Capricorn un-covered. I found a website the she refer to, so there i looked up mine. :)

|| Blog At Will ||

I have a lot of thought in my mind. I wish i could share them with as many people as possible as and when i wanted. I wish there is blog at will. Kudos to gmail coz i can post my comment simply by email to my blog like

Yet i still miss a lot of thought because i don't have TIME to do it!!! damn. A lot of this has passed ever since, but i'll try to fast forward and search back my memories to jot it down here.

Stay tune for Gemini Ghurl Un-covered.

Friday, September 08, 2006

....until our path crossed each other again

we say this when we leave our friends. obviously we are at a juction that lead to different direction than our friends, although going to different ways, we hope that we will see each other again.

last weeks i went to KL Sentral and i met my senior in MRSM, both of us recognize each other and both of us doesn't remember each other names. our path crossed again.

while surfing friendster not long ago, i stumbled upon another my MRSM senior, and he was my 'Ketua Bilik'. our path crossed each other again.

i have a bunch of friends in standard 1 (Sekolah Rendah Kebangsaan Sultan Ismail 1, especially those in class '1 Biru'. When i left the school i hope to see them again and yes i did met them in Form 4 at MRSM PC. They were Payeik, Sede and Peja. Our path crossed each other again.

and i am also amused when one of my collegue in office, did end up in my blog here. no one in the office knows about it, but she did cross the path with me here!!

Monday, August 28, 2006

My next hunny......

This is my next hunny bunny....InsyaAllah kalau ada duit.

I had Nikon SQ (status: gone) and Sony W5 (status: working great)previously. To add this new hunny into my collection, gonna cause a big hole in my pocket....but i still want it though. :D

U happy?

I was texting with someone today. When all conversation lead her to ask me this question.

"U happy?"

The question really struck me deep inside, pausing me from the fact of this universe for a while, and make me dive deep inside myself looking for the answer. It's not like an ordinary question like "are u hungry?", "are u bored?", "are u sick?", which there is a lot of body sensors that can detect it and simultaneously feedback the answer. It involves more into feelings..

The truth is i don't know whether i'm happy or not. But that is not the answer that i gave to her. In a smaller scope i try to answer according to what had happen between us and the anwswer was.

"Im happy 2 do a right thing."

Sunday, August 27, 2006

Manusia Hanya Merancang Tuhan Jua Menentukan!!

Perbualan SMS

me:"wey slamat pengantin baru. Sori x dpt dtg."
- aku antar SMS kat member aku yg akan kawin today 26/8/06. Dia hantar kad kawin dia lebih kurang sebulan lalu. Boleh dikatakan kad kawin dia tu agak 'kewl' sbb ada gambar dia dan tunang dia berlatar belakangkan KLCC!

En J:"Sori beb. aku x jd kawin la. kansel sume xde. next time"
- aku terkejut mendapat jawapan begini. semacam satu kenyataan yg tidak dapat diterima oleh kepala otak aku ini. Persoalan besar yg keluar, Kenapa?

me:"Astagfirullah. Sabar bro. Ad hikmah tu. Nanti lain kali story"
- wpun aku mmg ingin tahu apa yg sebenarnya terjadi (bukan bermaksud utk bergossip tetapi utk menjadi teladan) namun aku simpan dulu petanyaan besar itu, kerana situasi yg masih 'panas' ini.

En J:"Dun wori bro i'm fine. kt doa je la"
- wpun jawapannya nampak tenang, namun hanya Tuhan shj yg tahu betapa bergeloranya hatiNya, apakan tidak menara yg ingin dibina hancur musnah begitu sahaja.

Rupa2nya En J penah menghantar sms yg berbunyi seperti berikut, 2 hari sebelum ini.
En J:"A'kum bro. minta maaf majlis kawin kansel tp kenduri d melaka ttp ada. djemput hadir"
- mmg aku telah baca msg itu pada hari tersebut, namun tafsiran aku pada masa itu adalah berlainin. Pada mulanya aku membayangkan upacara 'kawin' (bersanding dan sebagainya) yg kansel tetapi mereka masih di akad nikahkan, namun hal yg langsugn tidak aku terfikir terjadi. Jika tidak masakan aku masih memberi ucapan tahniah padanya dihari ini.

Terkedu aku memikirkan perkara ini. Suatu perjalan perhubungan yg panjang, yg sudah menghampiri ke jalan yg halal, hanya menantikan satu ijab kabul utk dimaktubkan, tiba2 terkandas di pintu pelamin. hmmmmmmmm...... sungguh menyedihkan. :(

Semoga Allah menjaukan aku dari ujian sebegini. Amin.

Saturday, August 26, 2006

Where have all the good boys gone?

If youre married, asked this question to your spouse. "How many relationship do you have, before you married me?". Relation here is define as anything as long as u speak of 'i love you'. Chances are you will here that women will have more relationship to men.

Ok hang on, we are talking about the 'normal' people here. A fairly beautiful women and a fairly handsome men. Not on the two opposite end of the graph, the superly brad pitly looking guys or a crooked looking guy. You got the main aye?

1. Women will have more than 3 relationship.
2. Men will have less than 3 relationship.
3. Ratio of men to women in Malayias is like 1 men to 8 women (if i'm not mistaken).

So here comes the big questions, with who did this women have all the relationship when their partner doesn't involves in this. The answer is, they (all women) are chasing all this 'player'.

Player is a name that have evolved from centuries ago. During 14th century they may be known as Casanova. Some women labelled thema as 'buaya', 'musang', 'mat romeo', etc. They are what i called fortunate males who were given the charming looks and action beyong their ordinary spesies. It is recognize that this spesies do hunt women for their pleasure, but it is also an underlook theory where female do provoke this 'Player' to like them. I won't indulge too much on this matter in fact (next time probably).

So what happen to all this good boys, back then. From my experience and my friend's experience, men don't generally rush into relationship. They might involves with some stupid monkey love during their primary or secondary schooling but after that they probably don't. They need soo much time with their FRIENDS... so gals now you should know why friends are important to men.

In contrast to women, they are constantly need to feel secure or in the need of companion. Women confess to me that even if they have girl friends, they still need their boyfriend, to channel the enormous amount of emotions that they have. Its true, women are full of emotion and men are not. Does this rings a bell, when your male partner always forget your anniversaries? It doesn't mean they don't love you but their mind is not fully emotional to remember that date. For some it is just a date, as long as he love you, who cares?

wah.... i'm tired already. It is interesting topic, i promise to discuss it again.

Till then.

Age Gap

Friday, August 11, 2006

Home Sweet Home....ohhh yeahh

i'm back in Kelantan.....its been quite some time since the last time i was back here. When youre home, there are certain feeling rushing into you........its hard to explain but it exist.

Thinking deep inside, i can summarize its the feeling of SECURE. Yup in your home, you feel safe, in your home you had love, in your home you had very everything. Its good to be home.... :D

Monday, August 07, 2006

NIRVANA - All Apologies

*suddently after i wrote my previous blog, my Winamp plays song All Apologies from Nirvana. What a coincidence, so here it goes...

What else should I be
All apologies
What else should I say
Everyone is gay
What else should I write
I dont have the right
What else should I be
All apologies

In the sun
In the sun I feel as one
In the sun
In the sun

I wish I was like you
Easily amused
Find my nest of salt
Everything is my fault
Ill take all the blame
Aqua seafoam shame
Sunburn with freezerburn
Choking on the ashes of her enemy

In the sun
In the sun I feel as one
In the sun
In the sun

Yeah yeah yeah yeah

All in all we all are (x13)

I'm Sorry...

Time: 8.38pm
Loc: My room
Music Play: Radiohead - Creep

(Sigh)it been 1 month since i blogging, in between a lot of things have happen around me and within me. Israeli laknatullah have attack Palestine and Lebanon mercilessly, their war planes have pounded both places like they care not for any lives living there. A lot of our brothers and sisters have died in vain, May Allah Almighty put their souls in peace. I'm sorry for them.

Yestermonth also saw the biggest clash of of ideas between Muslim and non-Muslim in Malaysia, in the middle stood a person name Azlina Kamaruddin @ Lina Joy. This among the biggest test strike deep down into the heart of all Muslim in Malaysia. I can say some are not even bother at all but for the rest of us it is clearly a declaration of anti islam (from group called Article 11).... on our own soils? May Allah Almighty unite our heart against these people. I'm sorry (and sad) for those Muslim support Article 11.

Just a few days ago KJ (Khairy Jamaluddin) begin answering all the negative allegation certain quarters made into his fasttracked reign into power, ECM Libra Scandal, Scenic bridge scandal, Maya Karin scandal and etc. I'm not saying i'm totally against him, but all the allegation i read do have its creadibility. If he is sincere with his UMNO struggle, i pray to Allah almighty to guide him. I'm sorry for him.

Another episode have also unfolded in my life. Two months ago if you asked me, i never expected this to happen, but it did happen. Even when it happen i never thought its gonna be complicated like this. I'm in dilemma. The decision making dilemma. In one hand i have to think about me, myself and I and on the other hand i have to think about all those people who might be affected with my decision.

This is not an overnight decision, i been thinking about it since it happen (and also before it happen). I slept thinking what i should do about it.

Would you go against your own principle that you believed in just for your own good?

Only God knows how difficult it has been. I try not to indulge to emotionally with my decision, i try to think straight, i try rationalize it, i pray to HIM to seek his guidances. This decision may hurt some people.....but i hope only for short period of time, but ultimately it will be the best decision for many people (i do estimate it gonna put me in losing end). I remember a dialogue in a movie "sometimes doing the right things isn't doing the right things". I hope this entry will become a testimonial (in the future) if it is ever be questioned again. I'm really sorry for her.

Sunday, July 02, 2006

Total Cost of Ownership

I've just finished transfered my car maintenance bills into a spreadsheet. I guess a spreadsheet like that will be very handy when you want to check which shops are trying to chop off your head and which one give a value for money.

The list cover all repair works on my beauty Mazda 323 Protege (called Lantis in Malaysia). I knew from the beginning that buying 2nd hand car will incurred an additional cost of maintaining it. I like 2 be diff and Proton and Perodua cars are just too common...pardon me. Brand new Hondas, Nissan or other Japs beast are way beyong my reach... Korean car never appeal my taste and i never dream of continental cars.

Ok... so the total cost of maintenance for the past 1 year was RM 6458.

cheap? expensive? i'm not sure.

Friday, June 30, 2006

Ketupat Linux

From left: Pian, me, Kimi and Tumpaque.

Photos taken after UTP Alumni AGM (we didn't attend it though). We were hang out at Gloria Jeans KLCC. It was a short meeting but worthy.

Pian remembered bila ko pening kepala first time minum ice blended? It was so funny.

Nad and His Wife

From left:Kimi (what the heck is kimi doing in the pic),Nad & his wife (Lin).

Darn i've been very busy for the past 2 a BIG event in my office called World Cup Extravaganza..its eating up my time, energy and also money!! this blog has been idle ever since. Now the shop is open back.

Went to Nad's wedding on 18/6/06. Me, Kimi + kawan kimi (apa nama dia ntah), Wari (a.k.a. Ayoh), Pian + fiance.

What a suprised when a long lost friend showed up..... Mat (a.k.a. Mat BDR) and his wife. There's been some riff between Mat and the rest of the group, but i guess time heals everything. We chit chat and joking just like the gool ol' days.

Big kudos goes to SARIP.....why? I never imagined that Sarip is coming to that wedding from his office in Kelana Jaya to Nilai on a Bike. I was like...."wow"...i know for sure he went there not just for a plate of Nasi Minyak(i think dia amik dua), BUT as a friend...a good friend.

Nad and his wife look very luvely, just like a couple made in heaven. Although i must admit the color looks kinda irratating to my eyes...hehehhe...

There was also Seraf, Irsan and Fido. Where is the others? I'm expecting more ppl to show up, but i guess as we grew older ppl are start busy with their life and couldn't make time for wedding ocassion like this. I remembered during Paul, Kimi wedding, we can easily get 5 cars full of friends = 20 ppl.

After i got back i receive SMS from Mat which read "Akum po. Just nak bgtau yg seronok dapat jumpa dgn ko n the others. Lama betul tak jumpa ya. Hmm, kalau ada apa2 aktiviti lepas ni nanti, jgn la lupakan aku k. Ok bro, do keep in touch and do have a nice day ahead aite bro!"

Did we abandon him? not any more.

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

Sudin and His Wife

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim (Dengan Nama Allah Yg Maha Pemurah Lagi Mengasihi).
Sudin kawanku telah selamat diijabkabulkan dengan isterinya (sori nama lupa), majlis kenduri belah perempuan telah diadakan di Bandar Seri Permaisuri. Kami berempat aku, Kimi, Emin dan sorang kwn aku dr kelantan (tiada kaitan dgn Sudin) berkunjung ke kenduri itu utk memberi penghormatan kepada salah seorang sahabat baik (rakan serumah (Rumah 20), rakan secourse, rakan semoto)yg bernama Samsuddin Abdul Aziz.

Sudin mmg nampak bersedia dgn utk memulakan tugas baru sebagai seorang nakhoda bahtera keluarga. Tanggungjawab yg tidak kecil namun wajib dilaksanakan oleh semua umat Nabi Muhammad yg bernama lelaki.

Ketika aku sampai ke majlis, kebetulan rombongan Sudin juga baru sampai. Kelihatan dia memakai baju melayu berwarna ungu muda, bersampin, bertengkolok dan berkeris...gah!! sekali seperti Sultan Melayu. Pada mulanya dia kelihatan amat serius, mungkin ada sesuatu yg merunsingkan kepalanya. Lantas aku menyapa nya, seperti kebiasaan yg aku lakukan "Weh Dingg". Dia tersengih, senyuman yang biasa aku lihat.

Aku memuji 'kehebatan' gayanya pada hari itu, masih sempat dia berlawak "Tengok nih, aku ado kerih. Kerih betul ni" sambing memegang keris yg tersisip dipanggangnya. Aku senyum sahaja.

Dipendekkan cerita, aku pun pergilah 'sappadam' dgn rakan2 yg lain memberi ruang kepada kaum keluarga kedua2 belah pihak menyelesaikan adat dan istiadat. Sudin semoga kalian berdua bahagia selamanya.

p/s: Aku beri penghormatan kpd mung 'Ding' dengan menjadi objek gambar pertama didalam blog aku.... heheh.. .."hebat dokk?"

Friday, May 19, 2006

loyalty vs stupidity

Here i am at 12:53am sipping quater full glass of coke, while inhaling my fav mild seven. (those 2 things gonna kill me soon!!)

i just realize that i still maintain my 10 year old hotmail account while at the same time utilizing yahoo!! mail and gmail. Maybe for some ppl they just gonna abandon their ol email when they have a new one. well some people just keep on changing their phone no.. i can't do that. i just love all the memories surrounding all things that related to me, be it email account, phone, no, notes book, pic, shirts, address books etc.

thinking deep down inside, i guess i'm kinda a loyal type of person, loyal to 'anything', even if i have something 'new' that ol things are never left behind. hmmm that bring me to another conclusion, i might be polygamous.... :D dont worry i'm loyal...

is loyalty a stupidity?

Thursday, May 18, 2006

the last supper

Tonight for the first time in about 3 years, sit together me, Nad, Kimi, Pian and Sudin. Nevermind about Tupac, Abah, Azhar and Ijat as they live far far away, although it would be very nice if they were around.

We went to this Kelatanese/Siamese restaurant in Pandan Perdana, called Arafah. Had 2 bowl of Tomyam Campur, 2 plate of Kailan Ikan Masin, 2 plate of Daging Goreng and a plate of Telur Dadar, simple yet very yummy to all of us compare to fine dining course at any reputable restaurant in Klang Valley.

There must be something going on, when Sudin is around. Yes it is. He together with Nad was there to pass to me and the rest of the group their wedding invitation. A honorable and memorable ocassion if i may say, The Last Supper of those 2 bachelors with me.

They can be consider as second wave to get marry, after the first wave of Tupac, Ijat and Azhar. I feel happy, excited and at the same time kinda sad knowing that they will no longer spending time with me and the rest of the group but alas we are 27 now and its about time each of us to surrender our bachelor title and move on in life.

The atmosphere was warm but not as happening as it used to be whe we was back in UTP. There are a lot of jokes, laugh, stories, gossip and fun back there. That was the day.

Pian have engaged and now only me and Kimi are left. Hmmmm...will i be the last man standing? i personally have thought about this a long time ago, but now it seems really happening. Nevermind, there is nothing to regret, looking back i always like to accompany any of my friend to the last. Yup i do. Its not that i planned to do that but i guess it always happen like that due to my mind-set "i'll never leave my friends behind".

Take for example, back in UTP; when we (housemates) going out for class i will always check that no one is left behind with the exception to those who prefer to sleep than going to class (Pian). Normally i and my pillion rider ride the last. Same case when we are going out for a lunch, dinner or 'minum'. I'll check whose going and whose not and i only left when i'm sure no one else is following. Dialogue like this always coming out from my mouth; "weh..tupac pegi dok?", "mana abah?", "piye jomm la minum", "lekss dulu Nad", "sapo lagi gi..?", "gi dulu...aku tunggu tupac", etc.

Sometimes i do feel my action is stupid, and i do feel hurt when no one wait for me in some ocassion. Now maybe i should think about relationship and the like, as everyone else have move on and there is no one else left behind.

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Enemy from Within

Siapakah kaum munafik? Mereka mengatakan mereka ISLAM, namun mereka menentang hukum Allah, mereka mendustakan sunnah Rasullah, mendustakan Al-Quran, membentangkan agenda tersembunyi mereka diatas lantasan kemanusiaan, mereke bersengkokol dgn musuh Islam menawarkan kebebasana atas nama hak asasi manusia/persamaan.

Merekalah musuh yang paling menggerunkan, mereka ber bin dan ber binti kan nama islam, berpakai seperti saudara muslimin dan muslimat yg lain, memakan makanan sama, tiada beza dari segi fizikal diantara mereka dan saudara muslimin dan muslimat kita. Tetapi merekalah yg mesti kita perangi, kerana mereke bersembunyi didalam ummah kita.

Ya Allah, aku berdoa semoga engkau jauhkan kaum munafik dari bumi Malaysia, dan terangilah hati kami utk dapat membezakan mereka, kuatkan kami utk memerangi mereka.

Adakah SIS munafik? hanya mereka mereka mampu menjawabnya. Wallahualam.

Story of the HOUSE


You have a house
You decorate it to your liking...although it might not look goods to others
You govern it by your own rules
You love it so much

That is your retreat
That is your history
That is your life
That is where you shelter
That is where you feed your family
That is where you grow your family

One day YOU wish your children will become the head of that HOUSE when youre gone


one day some distant friends come and want to live with you
You let them in
You let them sleep in one of your rooms
You let them eat in your kitchen
You let them bath in your toilet
You feed them together with your family

day to day
week to week
month to month
year to year have gone by

Will you allowed your friends to
Decorate your house
Govern your house
Love your house like it was his
Claimed the house!!

This is what happen to palestine and singapore
Will it happen here? only YOU can answer it.

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

whose name on my hotmail contact book

intro: apeace1@(mailpanas).com is my FIRST email add (since 1996). Proud to say i'm still using it although not actively as before, thanks to guys suxx.

let see whose on the list:

alanis, tasha
anuar, azhar
asma, hanim
awak, Payet
aYu, dAyaNg Ku
Ayu, Dayangku
azeta, nur
azirah, hani
Aziz, syarifah Ira
Azizi, Baidrul
azmeerudin, az
baharuddin, tengku juhan...
BMN, Aze
Chik, Syuwaibah
eta, nura
fadly, hairul
farabi, kelas
farena, nur
fikri, irfan
frisha, frisha
Hadi, Nurazeta Abdul
hasim, sufian
haszemi, nur lizziana
Hisham, Khairul
izza, noreen
jaswal, jathullah
jemaari, suraya
Jolie, Lolly
kb, cosmo
lady fa
leen, kak
lian wah seng
linux, ketupat
luthfi, shahir
maarof, nuraida
makhatar, azlinda
makhatar, azlinda
mansor, chot firdaus
maria, zoel
masrul, najimi
masyitah, ilina
mat, encik
mazmee, eliza
miswan, fareena
mmu, odek
munira, aida
musliha, muna
nadzry, md
nadzry, mohd
nizea, mir
norhaliza, raja
rafizi, ahmad
Rajaee, Azlinawati
reza, ilman
rizal, edwan
roslan, azzuhana
sahabat, sahabat -
sarawak, azwandy
sarawak, zaki
sepupu, kelab
Shahidah, Nik
shahrum, shahrina
shell, asria
street, job
takiyuddin, mohd
talibe, astalinda
UTP, ainolar shazali
utp, budak2
vedder, sudin
vedder, sudin
ZA, Azami
zahri, kevin
zainal abidin, azran
Zainal, Asma Hanim
zainal, hanim
Zaini, Fieda
Zuraidi, Iswan

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

who is Projek AK?

Back in 90's during the hey day of grunge/alternatives/underground (uuuhhhh i really miss that era), everytime you bought an cassette from underground band and flip through their kinda kewll cover you'll arrived at credit section.

From what i noticed (at that time), almost ALL underground bands will give credit/special thanks to this Hardcore (i think there hardcore)named Projek AK. Too bad that i didn't take initiative to explore who this band really are, and why so many bands gave them credits.

Even when i'm googling today, i still can't find anything bout them.... well after this years they probably stop playing gigs and perhaps have a wife and daughter that they love so much, doing 8 to 5, have bigger tummy, worried about their finances, sleep at 11 and so on. whatever it is i give my salute to PROJEK AK!!

my first secret recipe

Last Sun (7/5/06) i had my first Secret Recipe meal!! am i? well i think i ate their cakes before...emmm when was it.

ohh i ate the cakes from ijat birthday (given by mazerq)... hell yeah, that was what? 6 years ago!!

i got nothing against SR, it just i don't have much occassion to go there. I won't go there for a lunch or dinner am i? unless i'm really craving for their famous cheese cake, which i'm not.

*everything must start with first steps don't they.

Saturday, May 06, 2006

>>Symbol and their importance<<

Why does every groups/parties/movement/organization/companies/religious group/etc must have their own symbol?

check out here for list of religous symbol. imagine if they don't have the symbol? wat it gonna be? what if it doesn't have a name?

ok try this, imagine "sebuah pertubuhan kebangsaan untuk orang melayu malaysia". Kinda hard isn't it, can't imagine what 'kind' of thing it is. But how about imagine "UMNO" (at the same time UMNO symbol/logo/flag will flash in your mind). So this name + symbol represent/summarize the whole group.

According to Oxford 'Minidictionary' (yup, i only have mini dic); symbol n. thing regarded as suggesting something;mark or sign with special meaning.

Now it make sense huh! so every groups/parties/movement/organization/companies/religious group/etc who want to represent themselves to the general public 'SHOULD' have symbol.

p/s: i'm gonna come out with my own symbol.

Disclaimer: i'm not an UMNO member, their name is use just for an example.

Teman tapi Mesra

"Kenapa perempuan yg dah kawin lebih mesra dgn lelaki berbanding dgn yg belum khawin??"

me have experienced.

Congrats Taqi dude

Dude forgot to say congratulation to you (and Naiza) for your engagement.... ingat darah manis tu!! sekali petik.......

First encounter in KL Sentral


Tuesday, April 18, 2006

ohhh nak main ye...

No communication in one week. Lets play this game!

Sunday, April 16, 2006

Training at Amcorp

I'll be out of office for 5 days attending technical (read VB6) training at Amcorp Mall. Well i've learn VB6 back in Uni but hey i'd left this stuff for nearly 4 years... i need refresher b4 i went back to coding (hope not!!).

Well as long as company pay this training can also be considered as holidays in a training room. Unfortunately as no one standin for me back in office (well i'm the only person in Malaysia who handle this roles!!) so i guess i still have to check my mail every now and then...hmmmm talking bout responsibilites huh..


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laughter the best medicine.txt

Last Friday (31/3/06) i had a really good time with my friends. I used to have this kind of 'activity' everyday when i was in college. Hang out and laugh out loud.

That day there were Adlan (topic maker/topic heater), Sarip (victim/topic maker), Dato Nico (seems more serious since he joined PTD), Black (topic heater), Zam (topic maker/topic heater), Nad (audience), Kimi (audience) and me (audience/topic heater).

Well this is how the activity is conducted. First topic maker will start a particular topics, usually story about how funny something have happen to victim(s), then topic header will add some seasoning to that topic to make it more funnier then the rest of audience will laugh out loud to that jokes. As simple as that but it is very very pleasing and good for stress theraphy. We laugh so loud until we cough...hmmm imagine that.

We spend 4 productive hours at 'Kak Mah' a thai stall infront of SME Bank Kg Baru. Oh ya, before the session start we did have a pretty damn good dinner; bowl of Tom Yam (tasty), ayam masak merah berapi (kewll), kailan ikan masin (as usual) and telur dadar (also as usual). You need to have stamina to laugh right.... :D

The irony of this activity is that you will still laugh at the same jokes over and over again...(just like what happen when your repeatedly watch P Ramlee comedy).

Well guys, thank you for making my day.

p/s: i wake up the next day with headache!
* i wrote this 2 weeks ago but only managed to upload it today, coz modem screwed up again...damn.

Sunday, April 09, 2006

Its good to be home.....

yeahhh, kawe kelik kelate.

dekat 5 bule doh dok kelik, rindu giloss dekat tanah tepat kelahire kawe ni. Selamo ni 'parent' kawe hok dok sokmo singgoh KL.

tadi jupo ngan jiming + awek dio dan payed. pahtu gi tengok tomoi kat pade skoloh islah. wpun kawe doh sini sejak kecik lagi, tapi sebenarnya kawe dok beso pung tengok tomoi jadi 'experince' tadi pun kinda kewll jugok.

esok plan nak gi bazar, cari bare2 hok nok wak kelik kl. ciao.

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

B 2005


Its time again for every responsible Malaysian Citizen to submit their income tax declaration form. You'll received the form IF
1. You have registered as tax payer
2. You didn't changed your mailing address
3. Youre not dead!! :D

Well i got mine, a couple of month ago and last weekend with hi enthusiasm and determination i'm planning to finish it usual things didn't go as expected. I lost the FORM!!! demmit.

Searching through my so called 'upkeep' bookshelves, it was nowehere to be found.

so for those who lost this 'freakin' form, relaks. You can download it here.

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

Is it good or bad??

I am 26 years 2 months 22 days old and and i have never involved in a relationship before. is it a good or bad sign?

p/s: i'm planning to get married next year. can i?

*duration calculator

Sunday, March 12, 2006

Memory Remains

Last 3 weeks, my beloved computer break down. Suddently all partition become corrupted and in the end i can't boot to window. demmit.

The actual cause remain unknown but the damage is real. I lost everything!!!

Part of my life goes into this tiny white box i called 'kompiutar'. My fav mp3s (from my college heydays), my digital photos for as long as i get hold of digital camera, my valuable documents, my internet fav links, etc..etc...

"When you lost something then only you realize what you had"

I only realize how valuable those data were, there part of digital memory that i've taken for granted for soo many years. I never thought its gonna happen but it did, how fool of me (as it graduated) to be on this situation.

"No, i won't give up. i won't let go all the memories. i gotta do something".

I remember couple years back i manage to retrieve my irc log from formatted hard disk using one 'clever' software called 'lost n found'. Well its not end of road for me...Not at this moment.. yet.

I went to Low Yatt (geeks paradise) on search for this holy software. My messiah. Ther i found this installer 'Easy Recovery'. It has everything from 'Lost n Found' to other software name i never heard before or i just ignored before. With price of tag of RM5 i bought it.

I went to my kazen house to restore it, it was Saturday nite. First try was with Lost n Found something that i've used before but this software only work in DOS mode and need to have boot up diskette. To make things worst, my kaz doesn't have any diskettes.. double demmit.

We decide to pay a visit to shophouses in front of his condos looking for any goods store selling diskette while at the same time went for 'Teh Tarik'. Would you beleived me 7eleven sell 1 diskettes for RM4, whereas you can get a box (10 pcs) for RM10 in any IT stores..this 7e is totally rip off. Although i'm desperately need it i didn't buy it because i don't want to feel like the most stupid person on earth. We scout up and down the shoplots, searching for any cc that selling diskette. There are none.

We went to another areas at Tmn Melati scouting for the diskette, when all hope seems vanished, there was this small mamak good store (which initially i didn't expect to have it) sell the diskette. hurray for mamak!!

Back to my kaz house i start preparing the boot disk and launch lost n found, its already 3am at this time. The program need to scan my hard disk and ETC is another 4~6 hrs. Its better for me to sleep first n see the results tomorrow morning.

Woking up the following day, to my dissapointment (again) the pc hang! Arghhh!! ok nevermind lets just start again, so again i start it all over again and while waiting it to finish, i went for branch with my kaz. Returning back the pc hang again...demmit this stupid pc!! i have to do this somewhere else.

So i decide on sunday to go to Taki dude house. I set an appointment and went there around 10pm. There i decide to try something different, why don't i try another software called 'Easy Recovery'. So i setup everything and then let the system scan my corrupted harddisk, i hope this time it will work. I have to thank Taqi parent for their hospitality, had lunch at their house. It was wonderful home cooked food, something i miss for so long. While waiting the scanning process to complete, i was asleep! yes i am. At 6pm the recovery process is not finish yet, so after 'Teh Tarik' with Taqi i decide to call it a day and i'll return back the following weekend to resume.

Taqi dude mentioned to me that the file manage to be restored BUT the characteristics and properties have changed tremendously, for example 1 of my photos take a space as big as 1 Gig. Mutation i call this.

So last week i went to Pian dude to try it on his kompiutar, to my disbelief the situation is even worst. Estimate time to complete is 4 days!!! are you serious Mr Computer. I didn't go on. Instead i just spend time surfing over there. I should have wrote my blog while i was there.

Now it seems that i'm gonna miss portion of my digital memory forever. Back home, i reformat my hard disk and reinstall windows, and i'm gonna try restoring it at my own ground. Geek call it 'Try n Error' but i call it 'Try n Success' and it did works. I managed to get the sofware to read the partition table, and it manage to display all the missing folders (i.e: gambarku, gambarku2, etc)...yippie. i restored all those folder and that Memory Remains..