this NOT a cinderella story, or a superheroes story, or Akademi Fantasia thinggy, or story about a politician wannabe, or story about cat, or story about my car, or motivational blogs, or news, or gossip, or whatever youre thinking. This is a story about Me :)<..... and those around me. (Added on 11 Mar 2011>
Monday, April 09, 2007
Sunday, March 25, 2007
Up and running
I learned a couple of things from this experienced, (actually i learned it before, but my ignorances supersede my concsiousness). First you need to BACKUP all your data, things in bits and bytes that are precious to you, like digital photos of your nephew. Your excel budget, your collection of mp3, your collection of bittorent download, etc. In my case i do backup about 8Gb of my photos but another collection is lost because i didn't manage to backup it....shame on me.
Secondly, if this unfortunate event didn't occured i'm sure i'm still stuck with all same software and would seek other good alternative. Youre kind of comfortable in your own world and don't bother to venture out. Because of this incident i've found another very good FREE firewall that i think deserved to be published here. Comodo Free Firewall is a good firewall and its free. Get it here.
Thirdly, keep all your proof of purchase receipt. One file for all your tech stuff will do. When something bad happen (like my hard disk) you can always claimed warranty.
Fourth, when something are made to break, it will break.... someday.
Till then have a good day.
Monday, March 12, 2007
what a day (2)...
...and i lost the purchase receipt........ grrrreat!!
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
Dont.hate.me.because.i.watched.desperate.housewives.
I've been watching it since season one episode one. Kudos to Marc Cherry for creating such a brilliant series. The creativity aspect is on par with other tv series like Lost, Heroes, Ally McBeal and the likes. This is the real tv series's series.
Some tv series are pretty much stand alone (i wonder why should we call it 'series'), take for example CSI. Second episode doesn't related to first episode except for some part of the stories. I was excited watching CSI when it was first showing, but after a few episodes its boring and it doesn't matter if you missed any of the episode coz the storyline doesn't related.
But if you missed one series of DH, you gonna regret it and became desperate to watch what you missed............hahhahaa
Monday, February 05, 2007
what a day
when i reached home, my legs are almost give up. it almost cramped (no, i'm not exaggerating). i'm so damn tired, it feels the same as when i'm running in road realy in secondary school. i hate physical exercise....hahhaha... but since it compulsory by our education syllabus, i had to submit.
anyway. i hope tomorrow morning the lift will works (hahha dream on whose gonna fix it at nite).
Sunday, January 21, 2007
pc resurrection
> Since my died a few weeks ago, i was kind of
> cripple. Although there is always silver lining
> after every storm. I do met with new tools that now
> to be my liking, named Slax .
>
> I'll wrote the whole affairs with slax on my next
> post.
>
> Anyway, i'm kind of dissapointed with the mobo that
> i bought in lelong. Actually there is only 1 part
> that dissapoint me...It doeesn't have an AGP slot
> for my Graphic Card. I was expecting that the
> built-in VGA should suit my needs, but when the
> videos on The DaVinci Code start to jerking and the
> CPU usage spike up to 100%, i realize this build in
> thing is not up to my standard...DAMN.
>
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>
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Saturday, January 06, 2007
a pinkish wedding
Taqi and Naiza seen here on 23rd Dec 2006 during Naiza's receptions. I congratulate both em' and wishing them a happy live ever after.
This entry is made possible by Dell D610 (co. notebook) running on Ubuntu Linux LiveCD 4.10 Warthy Warthog Release.
Picture taken using Sony W5, ISO 100, f5.6, auto wb. Edited using The Gimp 2.0.
it feels good to WIN

Yup, this board will be use to bring my computer to LIFE my computer, rember the post RIP My Luv.
I've been 'disabled' evern since she was dead. Hopefully with this new board, she will come to life again. Unless there is another problems.
Anyway to kancil07 i hope you understand that i need this board badly, hopefully you can find another one that suit you.... :D
Thursday, December 28, 2006
are men cruel?
partners(female not male okay!). Is it true?
I think it does but in most cases women are just dont understand the
sacrifice that men did. When you asked women "what they want?". You could
possibly end up with 2 answers, they either donno or they want everything.
As funny as it may sounds, that is the fact, all because men n women have
different emotional and brains 'wiring'. That is how God created this two
creatures. To complete each other.
Ok now back to my story, referring to entry I HAVE TO MAKE AMEND. I had
come to conscise that everything gonna back to normal. She will go back to
her beloved bf (good for him) and ill go on with my so called DULL life,
full stop. I hope that she would understand or at least try to understand
what i did.
As when things have calm down for the past few months,i think i have pass
over this episode(its kinda challenging episode if i may say). Then
suddently last nite, i received sms frm her. The same thing that happen mid
this year unfold again. Ohh man, not again.
Tomorrow she wants to me. Let see whats gonna happen. Maybe i shld use diff
approach this time.
Women, listen up. Most of time men are being cruel to be kind.
Friday, December 22, 2006
island in the sun
i went to PD for some business works. stayed at Corus Resorts Hotel since Avillion Hotel is fully booked. My colleague said Avillion is much better, and i should think so after my experienced at Corus.
My comments about Corus:
- They cancelled my bookings without checking with me first. A very very bad first impression.
- A small elevator for guest. Waiting time is long.
- At one point there was no waiter to served me at Dickson's Coffee House.
- Toilet is not very clean.
Anyway, i had a nice view from my room. Look at those gorgeous coconut trees and man made lagoon. *picture taken with P990
Thursday, December 21, 2006
taxi oh taxi
was goddamn jam. Commuter cant even get past the auto gate. They can not
let ppl because there is a lot of ppl already at d track. I thnk smthg
wrong with lrt today.
Well luckily i managed to get a cab after walking frm Avenue K to AmBank to
Angkasaraya. Taxis are scarce at this moment, hi demand lo supply. This is
when i heard from the taxi radio "hartamas ke klcc bayar double"
I bet those in hartamas are even willing to 'bayar triple'.
Thursday, December 14, 2006
RIP my luv...
when i returned frm worked yesterday, i saw her laying quietly in the room. everything looks as usual. then i gave her a gentle touched her. try to turn her on, but there is no respond.
i started to have strange feeling. again, i try to wake her up. she's not moving. i'm afraid my worse nightmare had come visiting me, and at this moment it is so real.
no, i'm not letting her go just like that! i try to resuscitate her. practising all the skills i had learnt. up to the point i tried the riskiest act, i cut her open.
i tried everything but with no avail. she's gone for good. oh God why did you this to me. after having a good time last night, you took her away. im gonna miss her forever, she has serve me for the best 6 years.
good bye my luv. rest in peace my PC...!
Thursday, December 07, 2006
Bond... James Bond
I went to lunch at Kg Bharu with 4 'hot' moms couple of days ago. The reason being, my usual lunch partner are all busy with their own agenda. So we all went to Kak Som, the stall with all the taste that i need (read kelantan food). You can have all sorts of dishes there PLUS traditional kueh which is very rarity in this cosmopolitan.During luch, these moms start to talk about latest James Bond movie, Casino Royale. I haven't watch it, but i have heard couple of my friends commenting about it. But what i heard from these moms (read female) is kind of weird and show how different men and women see things.
They claimed that this new movie is NO GOOD...Well they first point they mentioned is that Daniel Craig is not good looking and hunky as the previous one (Pierce Brosnan). uhukk!!! i choked inside. and then they continue bla bla bla... but the main point is that.
This is very contrast to the comment i received from my male's friends. The first thing they said is, this movie is different from previous Bond's movie. Hmmm that statement enough to excite me to ask "Why?". They said the action are more realistic, he use less gadget to fight that evil nemesis, more rage and more logical!! well that statement is enough to convince me to watch it (though i haven't got a time to watch it). I really love everything about Bond when i was small but as i grew older and start to use my mind, i really don't like Bond's character. He is so cool, even when with facing WEAPON OF MASS DESTRUCTIONS, he depends a lot on his gadget, his action looks stupid, he always screwed Bond's girl (damm!!) and all the nonsense associate with his character.
Women and Men perspective are totally different. How the weighted things that they see is different. No wonder we complement each others. To those 'mom' who don't like this movie, i suggest you go back and rewatch Lord of The Ring, Orlando Bloom is there!!! hahaha
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
a sad wednesday morning
My aunt, Che Yah looks fine during our last Hari Raya gathering. She even cooked my fav dished, kuzi ayam. She was really a good cook. I'm still suprised and tried to accept this bitter truth, i couldn't imagine how was the feelings of her 4 children; Kak Azi, Kak Ann, Jaja and Yayang.
My sympathy is with them.
I'm taking a flight back home this morning. Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas rohnya dan ditempatkan bersama orang2 yg beriman dan beramal soleh.
p/s: kepada pembaca tolong sedekahkan Al-Fatihah utk roh si arwah.
Monday, November 27, 2006
Remember the good ol' days - Part 2
Yes, yesterday i went to butterfingers gigs at KL Jam Asia, Sri Hartamas. The gigs was entitled celebrating 1.2 milligrams 10th anniversary. was there with 3 of my frens, ah send, pok nik and jeli. there i met with hussein, tungkai and, taki and fiance.KL Jam Asia is located at 2nd row of shop lots besides Sri Hartamas Fire Dpt HQ. It was kinda of small cafe at 2nd floor, not quite a 'comfortable' place to held such a 'big' reunion.
when i arrived i see a number of crowd outside there. most of the faces looks like there are in mid 20' and above. although to my suprised i can see a fairly young 'kids' with their My Chemical Romance-emo/gothic hairstyle among the crowd. the first thing coming out of my mind was "hey kids you don't belongs here, this is grunge thing, you were sitting for your UPSR when we were rocking". hahhaha... there were some familiar faces that i've seen in the early days of gigs. You guys still rawking kewll.
or label released malaysian grunge album. The year was 1996 the same year i took my SPM. I still remember how did i knew butterfingers, it was my juniors in MRSM (can't remember his name). He gave me his butter cassette and told me "Nirvana Malaysia". i put the casette in my Walkman and yes they sounds like Nirvana, but hey all the bands in late 90's play this seattle sounds (grunge). all the kids (yes i was kid back then) are into this grunge thiggy. Those who were born between mid 70's to mid 80's would certainly love this music. They were teenager in 1996, full with teenage angst, rebellious and one of the music dose suitable for them is buttermusic. OAG was in the scene prior to butter, but they suddenly lost their fan base because they 'sold out' in other word they no longer 'underground'. well butter also did they same, they sign with major label (EMI) but i guess their commitment to the fans and underground scene, makes them more appealing than OAG.ok back to the gigs. once in the cafe, we settle down besides the sound mixer machine. there was this guy with his dreadlock hair manning that machine,which later i found out he was Batak from 18SGG, another big name in underground music. and then there is another guy who looks like he just wake up from bed coming in with his mixer and ibook. plugin those two hardware on the sound machine. later kadak and the drummer (i'm not sure who he was, i don't think he's kalai) arrived. the crowd begins to give huge hurrah to em'. energy begins to built up. later arrived emmett, with another huge cheer.
emmett start rawking with 10db, a high pace songs which the crowd begins to mosh hysterically like they've been holding up this energy for the past 10 years; a guy even start to stage dive. next here comes naive sick chasm, by now the crowd begin to sing a long. emmett voices was submerged and replaced by this loyal crowd who really missed the good ol' days. i'm not sure whether butter played all their 1.2 milli songs, but those that i recalled was nicc o tyne, wet blanket, ugly, me, sober (my all time fav) and chrome (another all time fav). the end their show with, as usual, vio-pipe.
later butter had a photo session cum fan's conferences. one person asked emmett, whether their new album will feature the grunge/seattle sounds, like 1.2 milligrams and emmett's answer struck me deep inside. he said something like this, grunge is like one excite part of your life. it was fun. now they have move on to their new sounds. I concur with him, it was an excite part of my life, thats why i was there, to revive that excitement, and i did. life goes on, there much more things in life than grunge, but alas i'm happy to be part of it.
kudos to this die-hard event organizer royalbutterfingers.net.
butterfingers.... keep on rawking!!
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
Remember the good ol' days
This coming Saturday, Butterfingers (or for this showcase Butterfinger) will perfom their songs for the acclaimed 1.2 miligrams album. The first album that sky rocket em' to the post grunge scene in Malaysia.For me it is like going back to the good sweet days of MRSM, MCC and UTP....
For further details, check this website
http://www.royalbutterfingers.net/
Monday, November 20, 2006
Let Adobe read PDF to you!!
You can let Adobe read the PDF files to you. Seriously, try it out. You got to have Adobe v6 and above. Then Pres Ctrl + Shift + B. Walla!!
To stop go to View > Read Out Loud > Stop
Kewll huh!!
Sunday, November 19, 2006
my new toy.... p990-The Ultimate Phone
I got my P990 3 days ago, after Nik return from Singapore. According to Nik its gonna burn a hole in my pocket in the sum of RM2400...ouchhh!I bought this phone because i'm considering to jump into 3G bandwagon for my broadband access, at the point when i decided, TMNET streamyx access is still not available at my house. I only been told by my sis that there was streamyx bills on Wed, when Nik already bought the phone. Else i might not have bought this beauty with brains.
Its funny thinking about it, suddenly both of your wish come true, is it blessing in disguise or curse in disguise. Anyway, i'm happy toying with this phone, although it is still bugs prone, but hey i'm used to Windows...hahhaha.
I've update the firmware and now its running on
:-Phone: R7A001
-Bluetooth: R4F01
-Organizer: R3B01
-CDA: R3B01
so far its running 'ok', with some minor crashed. It is recommended you install app Swiss Manager to better managed its memory.
I've also Master Reset it (with hoping to kill one of the bugs) but it end, up i lost the best preinstall game, Vijay Singh Golf Pro 2005. Please note i did Backup the phone (i'm not that clumsy), but when i've restore it, its not there anymore....... :(.
Wrote complaint note to Sonyericsson, after searching software on the net with no avail. I hope they can do something about it.
I'll write more about this hunny, next time!!
Saturday, November 18, 2006
I'm now broadband user...yippie
In my story I'm not OK , i've poured my dissatisfaction with what i consider a huge shame to TMNet. My housing areas which is within city center, a few km radius from Celcom HQ, UTM KL and Mindef; was a black spot, no broadband connection. So unacceptable. The crusade start after i submit my second applications.
I've contacted www.cfm.org.my , the complaint dpt under MCMC (Malaysia Communication and Multimedia Commission) to voice grievances. I'm sceptical that something gonna happen, but as you witness today after 1 years it did happen. Its not a smooth sailing though. I have to credit success to one of TM Manager Pn Hasnah, who handle my case personally. She even goes extra miles by giving her mobile phone no and email to contact her. For the past 6 months we are constantly communicate with each other. Hasnah thanks...!! I'll send you a complimentary email.
Yehaa.... gonna 'qadha' what i've missed from the net..
Let see the facts n figures of this new connection:
Monday, November 13, 2006
Time is running out
their strong and emotional vocal, heavy guitar, rhythmatic drums and percussion (piano i believed) make their sounds good to my ear. their brit-pop influenced can be traced clearly in their sounds, though they still retain much of their own personality. the lyrics which is very deep and meaningful is a soup-of-the day for me. its been a long time since the heyday of grunge i would sit down, smoked, listen to the music while reading the lyrics, the exception would be on My Chemical Romances; which i would say a bloody good band also.
ok, the cd (that i loaned from my cousin) got some scratches on it, now, when it play track 5 onwards the sounds start to distort. I have removed the CD from the PC but guess what, the sounds still coming out from the speakers... and it has been more than 5 mins. Holy shit, this CD is spooky.....hahahhaha. The only logical reasons, speaking from IT Expert perspectives is the data (read Muse songs) is stored on RAM, so when i removed the cd the data is still in my pc and so it still would be able to feed it to the application then to the speaker.
Now the tricky part, i also have quit Winamped and killed their process, and still the sounds is coming out!!!
Below is the lyric from one of their fav singles Time is Running Out. I really love this songs, reading their lyrics make it even better. It is like a blueprint of the dilemma that i'm having now. So folks, enjoy the lyric below (If you have the mp3, play it out loud!!)
Muse-Time is Running Out
------------------------
I think I'm drowning
asphyxiated
I wanna break this spell
that you've created
you're something beautiful
a contradiction
I wanna play the game
I want the friction
you will be the death of me
you will be the death of me
bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it
our time is running out
our time is running out
you can't push it underground
you can't stop it screaming out
I wanted freedom
bound and restricted
I tried to give you up
but I'm addicted
now that you know
I'm trapped sense of elation
you'd never dream of
breaking this fixation
you will squeeze the life out of me
bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it
our time is running out
our time is running out
you can't push it underground
you can't stop it screaming out
how did it come to this?
ooooohh yeah yeah yeah
ooooohh yeah yeah yeah
ooooohh yeah yeah yeahhhh
you will suck the life out of me
bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it
our time is running out
our time is running out
you can't push it underground
you can't stop it screaming out
How did it come to this?
ooooohh yeah yeah yeah
ooooohh yeah yeah yeah
ooooohh yeah yeah yeahhhh
Friday, November 10, 2006
Fickle
Fickle: Characterized by erratic changeableness or instability, especially with regard to affections or attachments; capricious.
well this word come from one of forum where the users are responding to the questions; What do women want?
some of the comments (some are funny...hahha):
- Women don't even know what they want....why bother even asking?
- I always thought that all the little lady wanted was to see her reflection in the bottom of a well cleaned and polished pan. Must've been wrong for years.
- What do women want? Shoes and handbags simple!
- If I ask my girlfriend what she wants I get shouted at for not knowing.<---kakkaka
- It is not that woomen don't know what they want. It's that they lie about what they want. They always leave off important information they assume "everyone" knows.
- Actually, women do know what they want and they can always tell you (though they may refuse to tell you). Unfortunately, what they want right now is not what they wanted yesterday and won't be what they want this afternoon.
- Amen brother... I believe the word is FICKLE.
- "You should already know"
asking is a trap <------ :) - My girlfriend told me she liked shiny things. I bought her a mop and said "Here you go baby, spoil yourself."<---------huhuhu
- There's only one thing women want:
EVERYTHING!!!
Now, think about it, what a slacker, kampung boy, laid back, un-metrosexual, Paralipophobia , geek, and kelantanese have to offer to her.
p.s: dah ngantuk, time for bed....damn TGIF tomorrow.
I have to make Amend
I have to make Amend...I must!!!
I've done something wrong according to Honor Among Men code sometimes this year. Its a long story and kind of complex, but somehow things that happening tonight open up an opportunity to me to correct things, or simply to make Amend.
p/s: I shall planned better this time. Not to screwed up again........but wait wait wait..... the decision is not finalize yet, had to think thoroughly (because my habit of like to 'think', she labelled me as 'complicated'??) first.
why the fuck i'm blogging at this time
Winamp: Moloko - A drop in ocean (now i'm gonna changed to Placebo - Days before you came)
Smoke: Mild7
I always had sleeping problem. What happened was, i will be Xtremely tired and sleepy around 6-8pm and if i fall, i'll awake at 12 and can't sleep till around 3am. Demmitt!!!
Today, i've fall asleep at 8 and now is the consequences.....so i'm gonna blog till i fall...again :D
*talk about Placebo always remind me of Taqi. Yeahh... that CD.
Blue Screen Of Death (BSOD)

I had a BSOD just now, about 2:05AM. I never had this 'cursed' for quite a long time. It come at most ironic moment of my life.
Well i was browsing this friendsta's frienster page, when Zone Alarm msg pop up and i click one of the button, then "Walla..." the cursed of Bill Gates come out.
That frienster page is something...gonna tell you bout it next time.
post Raya
First time ever in mylife i did that; and its not gonna be the last (let say if i'm married with KL gals). The reason i'm back to KL so soon got to do with something happening with my family in KB.
There is not many ppl at my home (btw, its only 4 of us 'adik beradik')this year; my bro didn't come back, his wife is heavily pregnant; my younger sis is in Yogjakarta pursuing Medicine, my parent is flying over to Yogja to visit her on first day of Raya and my sis simply don't want to go back because ....(i don't know her real reason but i think simply 'malas').
So it was like, i'm the only one with the high spirit to return to my beloved home (read Kelantan). First of all i did miss my mum and dad; and this like the 'official' ocassion where you seek their forgiveness. No, i'm not saying you cannot seek forvigeness on other day, but Raya is the special day.
Then, i don't only miss my family, i have all this bunch of friends that i miss a lot. They are from my alma matter; SRK Padang Garong II, SMIP, SIC, MRSM PC, MCC and UTP. We only get touch with each other at this day. Though many of us stay in KL, but again we are so distant.
I also miss all the kelantan food, various 'excotic' kueh are ready-made for breakfast and during raya. Where in Malaysia can you eat 'Taik Itik'?? I managed to get hold on 2 packet of 'Air Tuak' on the last few days of fasting. It seems that i't getting harder to get this special drink. I guess many of the ol Tuak collector have retired and their next of kin is not interested to resume this work. It was like a rare items now days and with all KL folks rushing back to kelantan the demand reach its highest point.
I can stay back at KB alone, but feasibility wise its not a good idea. Can't imagine if all relatives and friends come 'attacking' my house, 'nak angkat apa?'. So there i was on 2 day of raya, travelling from KB-KL in a Satria Neo.
Thursday, October 19, 2006
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
HowTo Bullshit
2. Make sure it's believable. Use information that you already know, and extend it just beyond the realm of what you know.
3. Any version of the popular 'Trivial Pursuit' games can provide one with a great source of bullshitable material. Simply read the questions and their associated answers. This store of useless, but true, knowledge can provide the perfect platform on which to build a great bullshit tale. There's nothing like having just enough knowledge to be dangerous!
4. Say what you say with confidence. If you say "um" and "stuff" nobody will believe you. If you say something like "In reality the sky is actually green", you can convince someone if you only say it in a tone that makes it seem true. It is only afterwards, when they think about the logistics, when they realize it's false.
5. Don´t forget to use the phrase,´at the end of the day´, to highlight your conclusions .
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Sunday, October 08, 2006
kisah butang baju melayu

Assalamualaikum,
I just returned from Tarawih prayer at Surau Ansar in my apartment. Something weird happen there.
Before Imam start the Tarawih a middle-age person approach me and handover a brand new 'butang baju melayu'. Yes this night i wear my cream colored baju melayu, the first time in this fasting month and yes i didn't put the butang on, on purpose. I was lazy to put on the butang as i was rushing to get to the 'surau'.
I was speechless, don't you if the same thing happen to you. So i took it and put in my pocket as Imam was already start the takbir. Then this guys gentle said "Pakailah..". I gave a gentle smile in reply.
Then i have to move away from him, to fill the 'saf' infront. In between the Tarawih i took out one butang and put on.
Before i left the surau i met think guy and shake hand with him as a sign of thank you.
The weird of this story is, how many people went to pray with additional 'butang baju melayu' in their pocket, and then give it away to people who are lazy enough to put one on?
I'm still in shock.
Saturday, October 07, 2006
why professional use white lens - Canon propaganda
Taki dude. Now i know why professional use white lens (read Canon). Back in 90s when professional photographer began to use AF zoom cameras, both Nikon and Canon introduce this type of cameras to the market. However Nikon AF couln't focus FAST enough to satisty the demand of quick action in sports. They lost to Canon ever since and haven't recovered yet!!
But overall Canon and Nikon are likes Merc and Beemers, both are good and quality products. Read here for more info.
Monday, September 25, 2006
About a ciggy

Disclaimer: This entry is NONE about promoting of smoking cigarette. It just an insight of the smokers life...
Ciggy; cigarette; rokok; krontip (rokok siam), refer to the same thing, a stick with a processed tobacco in it with a filter in one of its end.
Operating Method: lights one end without the filter, inhale a bit to make sure the fire caught the tobacco and walla!! you're ready to go. Putt the ciggy off before it caught up the filter.
When i was about to go to work today, i heard the DJ (Khairil and Kiran) were talking about giving up smoking in Ramadhan. As usual, we smokers always have this thought when it come to Ramdhan. It 'seems' that it is the best time to stop, i know a few who prevail and also a lot who fail.
I start smoking right after SPM but i've experimenting it before in form 3,4 and 5. To say that it was peer pressure will overly stated although they do become a factor why i did start. To be frank i cannot stand the smell of the smoke when we used to hand out everyday after SPM. People used to say "If you can't beat em' join em'", that is what i did and now i have to say i regret it.
Another problem with me is that i like to try new things, and when i try 'bad' things i usually hooked up and it damn hard to stop. Thats why don't wanna try drugs, sex and alcohol...... can't imagine if i hooked up on that shite. hmmm... well i did try 'ganja' as far as i remembered, maybe twice.
I started with Dunhill (remember the ads 'Gaya mutu keunggulan'),thanks to the gov for stopping tobacco ads on TV otherwise i don't know how worse the situation would be. Dunhill is consider as one of 'kuat' and 'keras' ciggy. The first time i tried it, cause me to lay down on bed...kinda high. Then when i go to MCC (Mara Community College), things getting worse, i can say that 70% of male population there smoke...!! my roomate Sudin smoke Marlboro so do most of the people there, the reason....maybe because it was an American Degree college, so ppl start to change to american style...yes i know its a lame excuse. Now you can see all the student with pack (soft pack) of Marlboro in their pockets.
Move to UTP i started taking Mild Seven, i think Pok Weil is the one responsible for introducing me to this Japan's brand. So i smoked Mild Seven until today. In between i've tried Lucky Strike, Camel, Gudang Garam Suria, Winston, Peter Stuyvesant, etc.
Ok now back to ciggy, when youre young like that you don't really think how bad something could be. You think you're always in control and you can stop anytime, hahah, well after 10 years i'm still hooked up to the tobacco sensation. I think its more on physhological effect, yes the sensation effect. I mean if you eat durian, you can taste it on your tongue and smell it on your nose....wahhh how best is this durian, but when you smoke the 'taste' it actually not there. You can only feel a smoke entering your throat to your lungs as you inhale and coming out to your mouth or nose (if you prefer). No taste at all!!
So what makes this 24.8% smoker in Malaysia smoke is because of the nicotine + other chemicals sensation. Human activity is all controlled by their brains, it make you feel all sorts of sensation, look at Paracetamol (or we call Panadol), does it really cure your flu, fever etc.... i'm no doctor by i think not. Panadol is just a pain killer, it blocked your pain sensation and let your brain thinks that the pain is gone. Then you go to rest, while youre resting or sleeping the body starts to recuperate and you woke up you feel better (sometimes when you're not and you take another dose of Panadol). The point is those who can control dia mind and will can stop smoking.
Will is a big word. You can say whatever you want to, i want to this, i wan to do that, but can you really make it. As for me that one is still beyond reach. I'm weak i have to admit it.
So for the time being i'll still be one of the person in a statistics who contribute to the big tobacco company RM 3 million revenue per month.
Saturday, September 23, 2006
Ahlan Wa Sahlan Ya Ramadhan
Selamat datang bulan Ramdhan, begitula bunyi translation utk title topic ini. Bermula Maghrib tadi umat Islam di Malaysia telah mula menyambut kedatangan Ramadhan dgn menjalankan ibadat sunat Tarawih yg menjadi begitu sinonim dgn budaya masyarakat Melayu Islam di Malaysia.
Surau2 dan Masjid2 yang pada bulan lain lengan dan sunyi mula dibanjiri oleh muslimin dan muslimat yg datang utk mendapat keberkatan dan keredhaaan Allah di bulan yg mulia ini. Satu pemandangan yg aku kira menyentuh perasaanku.
Meskipun ibadat sunat Tarawih boleh dilakukan sendirian dirumah, namun di zaman Khalifat Umar Al Khattab ibadat ini telah diadakan secara berjemaah di masjid, bidaah hasanah (baik)hingga ke hari ini. Jadi jika anda terlepas utk berjemaah di masjid janganlah keciwa sehingga meniggalkan terus solat Tarawih pada malam tersebut, anda masih boleh bersolat bersendirian dirumah.
Bulan Ramadhan adalah bulan bonus, jika kakitangan kerajaan menuggu pengumuman bonus di hari belanjawan, maka utk umat Nabi Muhammad dijanjikan bonus di bulan ini. Pertama adalah bonus berpuasa, kedua bonus solat Tarawih dan ketiga bonus malam Lailatul Qadr.
Shalat tarawih atau shalat malam memiliki keutamaan dan keistimewaaan sebagai salah satu ibadah di bulan suci Ramadhan. Apa saja keutamaan shalat tarawih itu?
Dari Ali bin Abi Thalib ra bahwa dia berkata: Nabi SAW ditanya tentang keutamaan-keutamaan tarawih di bulan Ramadhan. Kemudian beliau bersabda:
1. Orang mukmin keluar dari dosanya pada malam pertama, seperti saat dia dilahirkan oleh ibunya.
2. Dan pada malam kedua, ia diampuni, dan juga kedua orang tuanya, jika keduanya mukmin.
3. Dan pada malam ketiga, seorang malaikat berseru dibawah 'Arsy: "Mulailah beramal, semoga Allah mengampuni dosamu yang telah lewat."
4. Pada malam keempat, dia memperoleh pahala seperti pahala membaca Taurat, Injil, Zabur, dan Al-Furqan (Al-Quran).
5. Pada malam kelima, Allah Ta'ala memeberikan pahala seperti pahala orang yang shalat di Masjidil Haram, masjid Madinah dan Masjidil Aqsha.
6. Pada malam keenam, Allah Ta'ala memberikan pahala orang yang berthawaf di Baitul Makmur dan dimohonkan ampun oleh setiap batu dan cadas.
7. Pada malam ketujuh, seolah-olah ia mencapai derajat Nabi Musa a.s. dan kemenangannya atas Fir'aun dan Haman.
8. Pada malam kedelapan, Allah Ta'ala memberinya apa yang pernah Dia berikan kepada Nabi Ibrahin as
9. Pada malam kesembilan, seolah-olah ia beribadat kepada Allah Ta'ala sebagaimana ibadatnya Nabi saw.
10. Pada Malam kesepuluh, Allah Ta'ala mengaruniai dia kebaikan dunia dan akhirat.
11. Pada malam kesebelas, ia keluar dari dunia seperti saat ia dilahirkan dari perut ibunya.
12. Pada malam keduabelas, ia datang pada hari kiamat sedang wajahnya bagaikan bulan di malam purnama.
13. Pada malam ketigabelas, ia datang pada hari kiamat dalam keadaan aman dari segala keburukan.
14. Pada malam keempat belas, para malaikat datang seraya memberi kesaksian untuknya, bahwa ia telah melakukan shalat tarawih, maka Allah tidak menghisabnya pada hari kiamat.
15. Pada malam kelima belas, ia didoakan oleh para malaikat dan para penanggung (pemikul) Arsy dan Kursi.
16. Pada malam keenam belas, Allah menerapkan baginya kebebasan untuk selamat dari neraka dan kebebasan masuk ke dalam surga.
17. Pada malam ketujuh belas, ia diberi pahala seperti pahala para nabi.
18. Pada malam kedelapan belas, seorang malaikat berseru, "Hai hamba Allah, sesungguhnya Allah ridha kepadamu dan kepada ibu bapakmu."
19. Pada malam kesembilan belas, Allah mengangkat derajat-derajatnya dalam surga Firdaus.
20. Pada malam kedua puluh, Allah memberi pahala para Syuhada (orang-orang yang mati syahid) dan shalihin (orang-orang yang saleh).
21. Pada malam kedua puluh satu, Allah membangun untuknya sebuah gedung dari cahaya.
22. Pada malam kedua puluh dua, ia datang pada hari kiamat dalam keadaan aman dari setiap kesedihan dan kesusahan.
23. Pada malam kedua puluh tiga, Allah membangun untuknya sebuah kota di dalam surga.
24. Pada malam kedua puluh empat, ia memperoleh duapuluh empat doa yang dikabulkan.
25. Pada malam kedua puluh lima , Allah Ta'ala menghapuskan darinya azab kubur.
26. Pada malam keduapuluh enam, Allah mengangkat pahalanya selama empat puluh tahun.
27. Pada malam keduapuluh tujuh, ia dapat melewati shirath pada hari kiamat, bagaikan kilat yang menyambar.
28. Pada malam keduapuluh delapan, Allah mengangkat baginya seribu derajat dalam surga.
29. Pada malam kedua puluh sembilan, Allah memberinya pahala seribu haji yang diterima.
30. Dan pada malam ketiga puluh, Allah ber firman : "Hai hamba-Ku, makanlah buah-buahan surga, mandilah dari air Salsabil dan minumlah dari telaga Kautsar. Akulah Tuhanmu, dan engkau hamba-Ku."
Demikianlah, keutamaan shalat tarawih yang disebutkan oleh Rasulullah SAW.
Firman Allah bermaksud: “Sesungguhnya kami telah turunkan al-Quran itu pada malam yang penuh keberkatan dan sesungguhnya Kami-lah yang memberi peringatan.” (Surah al-Dukhan, ayat 2)
Firman Allah bermaksud: “Sesungguhnya kami telah turunkan al-Quran itu pada malam kemuliaan.” (Surah al-Qadr, ayat 1)
Kepada mereka Allah memberikan ganjaran kebaikan yang sama nilainya dengan beramal seribu. Firman Allah bermaksud: "Malam al-Qadar itu itu lebih baik daripada seribu bulan.” (Surah al-Qadr, ayat 3)
Marilah kita bersama2 merebut bonus yang datang setahun sekali ini. Jika 11 bulan telah dikorbankan utk urusan duniawi, apalah sangat sebulan ini kita 'concerntrate' dan fokus utk urusan akhirat kita.
Penjelesan lanjut tentang Ramadhan dan kelebihannya boleh didapati di sini.
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
i'm exhausted
I'm so sad that i miss a 'tahlil' for my anak sepupus last night, this is one of the cost. Kay i received the invitation from my kazen a few days ago, a tahlil is going to be held at their house last nite, somewhere around PJ, section 5.
So yesterday, i have planned it to get there by 8 just in time for Isya'. However there was this committee meeting in the evening to finalize all the stuff, its started at 5 and finish at 7, that after i notified them that i have to leave by that time.
Even so, there are so many others stuff that i still have to do that i only managed to leave office at about 7.45 (that is good enuff, i thought). Travel to PJ i did, and i arrive there at about 8 smthg. I don't really know where the house is, except that the address that i have on hand, i had make 2,3 times u turn around section 5 looking for Lorong 5/15E. Suddently i received a call from Cold Storage, i need to make payment for the hamper as i already promised them to do so.
Initially i planned to pay em' at 6, but since the meeting drag up to 7, i totally forgot and just left off. Now one hand on a steering wheeling another hand on my P910 handset and my mind started to rationalize what to do..... At that time it was already 8.30 and i was already late for the tahlil which i do not know where it is. Finally i made a call to return back to KLCC and 'have' to give up the tahlil. Its not an easy one and along the way, i kept thinking what would i think if it was my tahlil and my relatives and friends simply left me because there are busy........
To arwah Nik Li my anak sepupu, i'm guilty for you. I'm gonna pay back by read yassin for your soul. Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas rohnya dan menempatkannya bersama orang-orang yg beriman. Ameen.
Saturday, September 16, 2006
Capricorn Men Un-covered
A man in this Zodiac will has a pair of round big beautiful eyes, a nice structure jaw line. He is a good listener and can understand everything easily and clearly. He can g uess what you will say before you even say it. He often shakes his head or touch his hair. He is a big built, but he will tend to have a small ear. He tends to have a darker shade of hair and eyes’ color. He will likely have a short and strong neck, broad shoulder, muscular, strong hands and grips. He has a shorter fingers compare to the man of the same size and same height in the other zodiac. His hands can work well at the same time can protect and care for his woman.
His height will be proportional to his weight. He will walk firmly and always take a big long step. As he walks he will look around in caution with no disturbance from his problems at present or in the past. He likes to watch things built with fascinate and wonder about how it is done, so you could see him watching a construction site and not get bored.
He is a good dancer. He is a careful person in instinct, so even at dance floor, he will already hav e to know what in front or behind him before he will take any steps.
Green is his favorite color. You will mostly see him wear green, navy, blue, or brown. In all 12 Zodiacs, he is the one who can get the most satisfaction from possession of beautiful thing, and cherish it as if it is very valuable to him even it is just a crystal ball made in France.
It is his luck that he hardly has to chase after woman. They always come themselves without his invitation. He likes to treat his guest in his house than visiting his guest at their house. He does not like to be a center of attention, so if you need his help, you have to look up for him. He lives his life in stability and simplicity. Every decision made are already “Sure” and carefully thought out. He will not do what he has been asked to do if he is not interested in doing it. He acts casually but in reality, he always doing things seriously.
He loves peaceful an d quiet environment so in his free time, he will stay at home instead of going out and look for adventure. He loves nature and dreams of a nice and quiet house with lots of trees, or he may dream of a house in a beautiful countryside.
He will let you have freedoms and watching you in a distance. If you are over doing something, he will let you know by his icy cold look. He is the perfect lover in all the Zodiac for nothing he will not do for his love one. He won’t allow people to laugh at him or think he is a joker, so he will spent for himself luxury for what it is worth.
He likes neat and well dressed woman, so do not be a slop if you are dating this guy. If you do that he will loose his face. He is the romantic type who would dance with you under the moon light.
Love will make him shines and you will see it in his face. He will not say it out loud, you have to know it yourself.
Gemini Ghurl Un-covered

Taki Dude, hope youre reading this. Since you know most of the stories bout me, then this new material that i found in her blog might bring some clues this whole drama. It is a zodiac personality description of her, i pick some of the key point and slot it to the whole stories to unravel why did it happen.
It may not be true at all as some things might be a coincidence but let just explore it for the understanding (read: caution) sake..

First of all, she is a proud geminian, well nothing wrong wittit as everyone proud of what they are, i'm proud to be capricornian.
1. She's a women with many character...hmmm i can see that.
2. she is quite lucky in love.... hmmm i think so.
3. Her conversation will not bored you....yes
4. She can make you feel like you are the luckies man alive....wo wo am i feel lucky right now? perhaps.
5. she needs all your care...no comment.
6. she can stand alone firmly and comfortably. ..."I takde kwn yg free. Takpe i'll b fine alone." ...what else can i say.
7. She can easily make a guy fall in love with her....am i one of those guys? This one i think i quite true...hmmm
8. Her multiple changes and many moods is a 'Charm' for many men.....i can see that :)
9. She can be laughing for 2 minutes than suddently quiet....experienced it :) but its interesting though.
10. Dream guy....are there any university offering Dream Guy 101 courses??
11. She is constantly waiting for her knight in shinning armor even when she is with a steady boy friend....wow this one is very deep..don't you think so Taki dude. See whats happening..If i'm that knight its fine then, but i don't have shinning amor thus i'm not that knight!! omg.
12. She can fall in love or fond of someone else while she is with you....can any 'men' accept this??
13. She will forget you quite fast, because change is in her nature....so breakup can be easy for her...i guess
14. her love live can be complex or a mess....oh my god, how did i end up in this mess? I pray that i can cleaned up this mess.
15. what she belief today can be different tomorrow....how to make you contantly believe in me?
16. Normally she will not lie....fuhhh at least i don't have to use lie detector.
17. She will be supportive person and always be beside you.... :) i can see that with all the 'caring' msg i got, very supportive indeed.
18. She has a beautiful dream and she loves to have someone walk side by side with her, together and equally....someone? whose the one.
allright that all about her. Intresting, valueable, informative, a bit daunting explaination of her.. Stay tune for Capricorn un-covered. I found a website the she refer to, so there i looked up mine. :)
|| Blog At Will ||
Yet i still miss a lot of thought because i don't have TIME to do it!!! damn. A lot of this has passed ever since, but i'll try to fast forward and search back my memories to jot it down here.
Stay tune for Gemini Ghurl Un-covered.
Friday, September 08, 2006
....until our path crossed each other again
last weeks i went to KL Sentral and i met my senior in MRSM, both of us recognize each other and both of us doesn't remember each other names. our path crossed again.
while surfing friendster not long ago, i stumbled upon another my MRSM senior, and he was my 'Ketua Bilik'. our path crossed each other again.
i have a bunch of friends in standard 1 (Sekolah Rendah Kebangsaan Sultan Ismail 1, especially those in class '1 Biru'. When i left the school i hope to see them again and yes i did met them in Form 4 at MRSM PC. They were Payeik, Sede and Peja. Our path crossed each other again.
and i am also amused when one of my collegue in office, did end up in my blog here. no one in the office knows about it, but she did cross the path with me here!!
Monday, August 28, 2006
My next hunny......
U happy?
"U happy?"
The question really struck me deep inside, pausing me from the fact of this universe for a while, and make me dive deep inside myself looking for the answer. It's not like an ordinary question like "are u hungry?", "are u bored?", "are u sick?", which there is a lot of body sensors that can detect it and simultaneously feedback the answer. It involves more into feelings..
The truth is i don't know whether i'm happy or not. But that is not the answer that i gave to her. In a smaller scope i try to answer according to what had happen between us and the anwswer was.
"Im happy 2 do a right thing."
Sunday, August 27, 2006
Manusia Hanya Merancang Tuhan Jua Menentukan!!
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me:"wey slamat pengantin baru. Sori x dpt dtg."
- aku antar SMS kat member aku yg akan kawin today 26/8/06. Dia hantar kad kawin dia lebih kurang sebulan lalu. Boleh dikatakan kad kawin dia tu agak 'kewl' sbb ada gambar dia dan tunang dia berlatar belakangkan KLCC!
En J:"Sori beb. aku x jd kawin la. kansel sume xde. next time"
- aku terkejut mendapat jawapan begini. semacam satu kenyataan yg tidak dapat diterima oleh kepala otak aku ini. Persoalan besar yg keluar, Kenapa?
me:"Astagfirullah. Sabar bro. Ad hikmah tu. Nanti lain kali story"
- wpun aku mmg ingin tahu apa yg sebenarnya terjadi (bukan bermaksud utk bergossip tetapi utk menjadi teladan) namun aku simpan dulu petanyaan besar itu, kerana situasi yg masih 'panas' ini.
En J:"Dun wori bro i'm fine. kt doa je la"
- wpun jawapannya nampak tenang, namun hanya Tuhan shj yg tahu betapa bergeloranya hatiNya, apakan tidak menara yg ingin dibina hancur musnah begitu sahaja.
Rupa2nya En J penah menghantar sms yg berbunyi seperti berikut, 2 hari sebelum ini.
En J:"A'kum bro. minta maaf majlis kawin kansel tp kenduri d melaka ttp ada. djemput hadir"
- mmg aku telah baca msg itu pada hari tersebut, namun tafsiran aku pada masa itu adalah berlainin. Pada mulanya aku membayangkan upacara 'kawin' (bersanding dan sebagainya) yg kansel tetapi mereka masih di akad nikahkan, namun hal yg langsugn tidak aku terfikir terjadi. Jika tidak masakan aku masih memberi ucapan tahniah padanya dihari ini.
Terkedu aku memikirkan perkara ini. Suatu perjalan perhubungan yg panjang, yg sudah menghampiri ke jalan yg halal, hanya menantikan satu ijab kabul utk dimaktubkan, tiba2 terkandas di pintu pelamin. hmmmmmmmm...... sungguh menyedihkan. :(
Semoga Allah menjaukan aku dari ujian sebegini. Amin.
Saturday, August 26, 2006
Where have all the good boys gone?
Ok hang on, we are talking about the 'normal' people here. A fairly beautiful women and a fairly handsome men. Not on the two opposite end of the graph, the superly brad pitly looking guys or a crooked looking guy. You got the main aye?
1. Women will have more than 3 relationship.
2. Men will have less than 3 relationship.
3. Ratio of men to women in Malayias is like 1 men to 8 women (if i'm not mistaken).
So here comes the big questions, with who did this women have all the relationship when their partner doesn't involves in this. The answer is, they (all women) are chasing all this 'player'.
Player is a name that have evolved from centuries ago. During 14th century they may be known as Casanova. Some women labelled thema as 'buaya', 'musang', 'mat romeo', etc. They are what i called fortunate males who were given the charming looks and action beyong their ordinary spesies. It is recognize that this spesies do hunt women for their pleasure, but it is also an underlook theory where female do provoke this 'Player' to like them. I won't indulge too much on this matter in fact (next time probably).
So what happen to all this good boys, back then. From my experience and my friend's experience, men don't generally rush into relationship. They might involves with some stupid monkey love during their primary or secondary schooling but after that they probably don't. They need soo much time with their FRIENDS... so gals now you should know why friends are important to men.
In contrast to women, they are constantly need to feel secure or in the need of companion. Women confess to me that even if they have girl friends, they still need their boyfriend, to channel the enormous amount of emotions that they have. Its true, women are full of emotion and men are not. Does this rings a bell, when your male partner always forget your anniversaries? It doesn't mean they don't love you but their mind is not fully emotional to remember that date. For some it is just a date, as long as he love you, who cares?
wah.... i'm tired already. It is interesting topic, i promise to discuss it again.
Till then.
Friday, August 11, 2006
Home Sweet Home....ohhh yeahh
Thinking deep inside, i can summarize its the feeling of SECURE. Yup in your home, you feel safe, in your home you had love, in your home you had very everything. Its good to be home.... :D
Monday, August 07, 2006
NIRVANA - All Apologies
What else should I be
All apologies
What else should I say
Everyone is gay
What else should I write
I dont have the right
What else should I be
All apologies
In the sun
In the sun I feel as one
In the sun
In the sun
Married
Buried
I wish I was like you
Easily amused
Find my nest of salt
Everything is my fault
Ill take all the blame
Aqua seafoam shame
Sunburn with freezerburn
Choking on the ashes of her enemy
In the sun
In the sun I feel as one
In the sun
In the sun
Married
Buried
Married
Buried
Yeah yeah yeah yeah
All in all we all are (x13)
I'm Sorry...
Loc: My room
Music Play: Radiohead - Creep
(Sigh)it been 1 month since i blogging, in between a lot of things have happen around me and within me. Israeli laknatullah have attack Palestine and Lebanon mercilessly, their war planes have pounded both places like they care not for any lives living there. A lot of our brothers and sisters have died in vain, May Allah Almighty put their souls in peace. I'm sorry for them.
Yestermonth also saw the biggest clash of of ideas between Muslim and non-Muslim in Malaysia, in the middle stood a person name Azlina Kamaruddin @ Lina Joy. This among the biggest test strike deep down into the heart of all Muslim in Malaysia. I can say some are not even bother at all but for the rest of us it is clearly a declaration of anti islam (from group called Article 11).... on our own soils? May Allah Almighty unite our heart against these people. I'm sorry (and sad) for those Muslim support Article 11.
Just a few days ago KJ (Khairy Jamaluddin) begin answering all the negative allegation certain quarters made into his fasttracked reign into power, ECM Libra Scandal, Scenic bridge scandal, Maya Karin scandal and etc. I'm not saying i'm totally against him, but all the allegation i read do have its creadibility. If he is sincere with his UMNO struggle, i pray to Allah almighty to guide him. I'm sorry for him.
Another episode have also unfolded in my life. Two months ago if you asked me, i never expected this to happen, but it did happen. Even when it happen i never thought its gonna be complicated like this. I'm in dilemma. The decision making dilemma. In one hand i have to think about me, myself and I and on the other hand i have to think about all those people who might be affected with my decision.
This is not an overnight decision, i been thinking about it since it happen (and also before it happen). I slept thinking what i should do about it.
Would you go against your own principle that you believed in just for your own good?
Only God knows how difficult it has been. I try not to indulge to emotionally with my decision, i try to think straight, i try rationalize it, i pray to HIM to seek his guidances. This decision may hurt some people.....but i hope only for short period of time, but ultimately it will be the best decision for many people (i do estimate it gonna put me in losing end). I remember a dialogue in a movie "sometimes doing the right things isn't doing the right things". I hope this entry will become a testimonial (in the future) if it is ever be questioned again. I'm really sorry for her.







